He Remained Mainly Unfaced By Their Words Fully Being Made Aware Now That If He Was Truly Unhappy With

levantcrs​:

“ares, i promise you i will be trying my best with us, i’ve fucking missed you more than i thought. don’t leave me again, ever.” yj says as he opens his arms, “come here.” 

“   i’ve been missing you like crazy too i’m just glad that we can together again like this i’m so sorry for acting the way i did earlier i just missed so much babe.   ”  he said wrapping his arms around them tightly.

more threads for my female & nb muses pls ? *pleading*

xseaofrosesx​:

“Yes, that’s what I’m wondering why you’re here after what happened.” He also remained eye contact with him tilting his head slightly wondering if he was plotting anything. “I think maybe you felt something during our little choreography run through. That’s what it is isn’t it??” He questioned just wanting to make sure he’s on the same page as him. He could tell the other was questioning something but he wasn’t sure what. He wondered if he felt something for him.

now that he was face to face with the other male now that there was no one else that could distract them from focusing on the matter at hand. he doesn’t even know what to say to them because he clearly was just as lost if not even much more lost than they were at this very moment because if he were to truly to say to them what was on their mind right now he was unsure of what they’d say to him let alone how they’d even react since as far as their current relationship was with each other it was very much strained they had practically hated each other and saw each other more as competition than as friends if you could even call them that at this point really. and yeah   !   sure they had been friends or at least they were on friendly terms still when they were in school together especially at the start of knowing each other back then but the more   &   more pressure and dread they both felt or at least that was what he was thinking at that time to succeed and make a name for himself outside of his already well known and well connected family with both of his parents equally pushing him to do more   ,   be something much more bigger than they ever were in this world he freely to distance himself from them and over time saw them as an equal but more of a rival if that even made any sense in anyone else’s mind other than his but with them now graduated and working through their way in this world something inside of him that he had for the longest time had been suppressing for reasons that he himself not say out loud even to himself but then again with that moment that had happened between them had somehow someway sparked something inside of him and just like he was on autopilot he’d rushed over after he had gotten himself changed into their trailer unannounced ready maybe   ?   to confess what he had been feeling for the other male all this time gulping down the thick saliva that was already forming within his throat clearing it before he actually began to speak  “   alright   !   but please don’t say this to anyone else.  ”  he said with pleading eyes already battling with himself that he was about to let loose his darkest secret to them he was just hoping that whatever the outcome that it would all turn out all good at the end taking in a deep breath closing both of his eyes very briefly in order to calm himself down mainly before he spoke up again  “   if i were to be honest YES i did.   ”  he added silently praying that their next words or actions for that matter would not be so harsh on him for feeling this way towards them at this time.  

╰    @midncghts

he always knew that it would difficult to getting into letting alone maintain a long distance relationship. but that notion wouldn't have stopped him as what exactly was he going to lose ? maybe have his heart broken if things didn't pan out as he'd hoped but that was beside that point since he did expect that already so after diving into the many different dating apps available out there and meeting a whole bunch of people that didn't really interest him on face value that is that was until he'd chanced upon the profile of jason and after getting to know each other through many months facetiming and phone calls they eventually ended up dating and yes ! of course it had been difficult at time living so very far from them at the time to not be able to hold them in his arms when he wanted to and vice versa but he still held out hope that they'd meet one day. and to his surprise that dream of his was to come true when he had heard from a mutual friend that the other male was to fly into his city for a couple of days that had obviously made him excited to FINALLY be able to see and hold his boyfriend in person , to finally hold him tightly in his arms and that all of those sleepless nights staying up with them over the phone as they had clearly lived under two different time zones were well worth the wait and as the day approached his heart was already beating wildly out of his chest as he dressed and got ready holding their favorite stuffed toy and balloons in hand as he waited for them to land at the airport ─── that was when he spotted them running over to them and tightly wrapping his arms around them smiling widely in the process. “ omg guess who it is babe ? ”

Gahyeon ♡ Bonvoyage

hozier lyrics, hozier (expanded edition)

❛  i should've worshipped them sooner. ❜

❛  we were born sick. ❜

❛  the only heaven i'll be sent to is when i'm alone with you. ❜

❛  i'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies. ❜

❛  good god, let me give you my life. ❜

❛  there is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin. ❜

❛  it's toying somewhere between love and abuse. ❜

❛  no more alone or myself i could be. ❜

❛  [i/you] lurched like a stray to the arms that were open. ❜

❛  i lay my heart down with the rest at [your/their] feet. ❜

❛  i wonder if it's better now having survived. ❜

❛  i'm so tired trying to see from behind the red in my eyes. ❜

❛  no better version of me i could pretend to be tonight. ❜

❛  [they/you] found me just in time. ❜

❛  cause with my mid-youth crisis all said and done, i need to be youthfully felt cause i never felt young. ❜

❛  it'd be great to find a place we could escape sometimes. ❜

❛  we tried the world and it wasn't for us. ❜

❛  you knew who i was with every step that i ran to you. ❜

❛  would things be easier if there was a right way? ❜

❛  honey, there is no right way. ❜

❛  i fall in love just a little bit every day with someone new. ❜

❛  there's an art to life's distractions. ❜

❛  love with every stranger, the stranger the better. ❜

❛  all i've ever done is hide. ❜

❛  when you kill the lights and kiss my eyes, i feel ike a person for a moment of my life. ❜

❛  but you don't know what the hell you put me through. ❜

❛  it feels good to be alone with you. ❜

❛  there are questions i can't ask. ❜

❛  now, at last, the worst is over. ❜

❛  i know that you hate this place. ❜

❛  there's something tragic about you, something so magic about you, don't you agree? ❜

❛  there's something lonesome about you, something so wholesome about you. ❜

❛  innocence died screaming. ask me, i should know. ❜

❛  there's something broken about this but i might be hoping about this. ❜

❛  we'll lay here for years or for hours, your hand in my hand. so still and discreet. ❜

❛  i'd be home with you. ❜

❛  any way to distract and sedate. ❜

❛  i'm somewhere outside my life. i keep scratching but somehow i can't get in. ❜

❛  don't you stand there watching me, won't you? ❜

❛  don't you join in, you're supposed to drag me away from it. ❜

❛  i'm so full of love, i could barely eat. ❜

❛  [they/you] are sweet as can be. [they/you] give me toothaches just from kissing me. ❜

❛  no grave can hold my body down, i'll crawl home to [them/you]. ❜

❛  you never asked me once about the wrong i did. ❜

❛  [you/they] would never fret none about what my hands and my body done. ❜

❛  if the lord don't forgive me, i'd still have you and you would have me. ❜

❛  why were you digging? what did you bury? ❜

❛  i will not ask you where you came from. i will not ask and neither should you. ❜

❛  just put your sweet lips on my lips. we should just kiss like real people do. ❜

❛  i know that look, eyes always seeking. ❜

❛  i will not ask you why you were creeping. in some sad way, i already know. ❜

❛  you know better than to smile at me like that. ❜

❛  i know who i am when i'm alone. ❜

❛  you don't understand. you should never know how easy you are to need. ❜

❛  don't let me in with no intention to keep me. ❜

❛  it can't be unlearned. i've known the warmth of your doorways. ❜

❛  i'll find my way back to you. ❜

❛  my heart is heavy with the hate of some other man's beliefs. ❜

❛  screaming the name of a foreigner's good is the purest expression of grief. ❜

❛  i feel no control of my body. i feel no safety in [your/their] arms. ❜

❛  all that i've been taught and every word i've got is foreign to me. ❜

❛  it looks ugly but it's clean. ❜

❛  your fight and fury is fiery. ❜

❛  it's worth it, it's divine. i have this some of the time. ❜

❛  you called my name til the fever broke. ❜

❛  i heard a scream in the woods somewhere. ❜

❛  i turned and ran to save a life i didn't have. ❜

❛  i need you to run to me. run to me! ❜

❛  when i was a child, i heard voices. some would sing and some would scream. ❜

❛  don't you ever tame your demons but always keep them on a leash. ❜

❛  you've done me wrong for a long, long time. ❜

❛  after all you've done, i never changed my mind. ❜

❛  please, try to love me. ❜

❛  my love will never die. ❜

no matter how many times they'd fight and argue with one another over the same stupid little things. he would be lying even to himself that no matter volatile their relationship had become over the years they've been together there was something almost inhuman that had been pulling him towards ian , that no matter how many times he'd go over and over in his head that he had to get over the other male and move on with his life no matter how many times he'd tried to focus on himself and his son maybe ? even put all of his remaining energies into running his cafe leaving him in the past finally nothing would work almost as if they were destined to be each other even if when they were still together in the past all they pretty much did was yell at each other at the top of their lungs after one if not both of them triggered an argument between them over the smallest of things and after they'd get tired of that they'd only end up having the angriest hate sex afterwards in order to make up for having their little fight earlier and then they'd just as easily repeat the same VICIOUS cycle over & over day in and day out though they did have their good days together yes ! which for obvious reasons was something that mingyu had missed very dearly showing each other maybe even themselves just why they ended up with each other in the first place even if it was still quite hazy in his mind probably due in part to the alcohol he'd already consumed at the party they were both currently attending he could still remember how they both first meet each other and how they both slowly but surely fell in love with each other , how they gotten to know each other through late night talks while out late at night when their kids had gotten to bed of course walking by han river or even the fact that both of their kids had become so very close with each other through the years they've gotten to know each other and eventually dated one another which was obviously something he really appreciated about ian that despite all of their bad times together they both at the end of the day truly loved each other no doubt about that the only question is that does that fact still hold up even today ? with how palpable their reactions to seeing each other for the first time again after many years apart from one other it was almost as if they had finally found their missing half their missing piece and even if there were still very evident warning signs for them not to get back together there was still no denying that deep down within his heart that he still want ian back in his life again and to pretty much pick up from where they had left off from one another in the past the question is though is that would the other still reciprocate his feelings like this and be willing to continue along with their relationship just like it was in the past or would they reject their advances outright for whatever other reason they may have as no matter how much he loved the other male there was still no inkling on if they still felt the same way as he did with them.

though the very though still linger at the back of his mind though was if they did for whatever miracle he could pray for would they end up the same way they were in the past. as from looking at them during the present day they hadn't really changed that much maybe ? this was probably the alcohol talking here but in his eyes he did get more handsome as time passed but as if snapping back into reality shaking his head he responded “ oh ! i'm sorry but i'm doing good as well i've just been busy with my cafe and haven't really gotten time to go out like this unlike today of course. ” he said let out a soft chuckle in response as he leaned in for their kiss onto his cheek wishing that it wasn't so bittersweet as he'd already longed for their arms to be wrapped around him like it had been in the past though he was just as happy to be around them again like this he just wished that they were to meet again not under such awkward circumstances though he can only dream of that at this point really. “ well i'm really glad to see you again ian. ” he added words lingering as he tried to mask behind them what his heart really wanted to say to the other male how he truly felt about them , how he'd longed to be with them again and be in their embrace like they had in the past he just hoped though there was something between them before it was too late of course.

𖹭 𝅄 . ׁ ˳ he    would    be    a    hypocrite    if    he    claimed    ignorance    about    the    reasons    behind    the    inevitable    end    of    their    relationship    .    he    couldn't    escape    the    awareness    that    everything    had    grown    suffocating    and    overwhelming    between    them    .    the    constant    bickering    and    heated    arguments    had    painted    their    love    in    shades    of    conflict    .    yet    ,    as    much    as    it    no    longer    felt    right    ,    he    found    it    excruciatingly    challenging    to    walk    away    .    everything    connected    to    mingyu    held    an    addictive    allure    that    defied    reason    .    breaking    up    had    become    a    difficult    task    because    he    had    grown    accustomed    to    mingyu's    presence    .    despite    the    fights    ,    mingyu    had    always    been    his    refuge    ,    until    that    one    fateful    day    when    everything    changed    ,    and    as    if    by    some    mystical    force    ,    they    became    strangers    ,    fading    from    each    other's    lives    .     he    had    tried    to    move    on    ,    but    mia    made    it    nearly    impossible    with    her    persistent    inquiries    about    mingyu    .    the    little    girl    seemed    oblivious    to    the    complexity    of    their    split    .    deep    down    ,    he    recognized    that    he    could    never    truly    erase    mingyu    from    his    heart    ,    and    seeing    him    at    the    party    only    confirmed    this    painful    truth    . ian    ,    although    slightly    taken    aback    by    the    unexpected    reunion    ,    finds    himself    drawn    to    his    ex lover    and    steps    closer    .    perhaps    it    was    the    effect    of    the    alcohol    coursing    through    his    veins    that    emboldened    him    ,    or    maybe    it    was    a    surge    of    long buried    emotions    .    he    couldn't    say    for    sure    ,    but    there    he    was    ,    making    his    way    toward    mingyu    ,    the    echo    of    his    heartbeat    filling    his    ears    .    “ hey    , ”    he    utters    ,    his    hand    landing    on    mingyu's    shoulder    as    he    leans    in    to    plant    an    almost    involuntary    kiss    on    his    cheek    .    ian    doesn’t    care    if    he’s    being    imprudent    ,    he’s    never    done    .    the    scent    of    mingyu's    perfume    lingers    in    the    air    as    he    pulls    back    ,    finally    meeting    mingyu's    gaze    . he    hasn’t    changed    much    ,    or    at    least    not    significantly    ,    he    thinks    .    perhaps    his    hair    is    a    bit    longer ?    ian    isn’t    sure    ,    but    mingyu    still    possesses    that    timeless    beauty    that    captivated    him    .    “ i'm    good    . ”    he    replies    ,    his    eyes    never    leaving    mingyu's    face    .    there’s    a    subtle    clenching    of    his    jaw    ,    a    sign    that    beneath    the    veneer    of    civility    ,    emotions    still    simmer    .    “ i    never    thought    i'd    see    you    again    either    .    i    haven't    seen    you    at    any    of    the    other    parties    so . . .    i    thought    you'd    moved    to    another    city    or    something    . ”    he    admits    .    “ how    about    you ? ”    he    asks    ,    his    head    tilted    slightly    to    the    side    .    “ how    . . . how have    you    been ? ”

╰    @unbaciio

his world had crumbled at this feet once he'd heard those painful words come out of their mouth. even if he knew that deep down they had meant those words completely , not hiding any sort of pretenses behind them that there was no way that kiyoung could just as easily move on from up until now was a still a very fresh even open wound upon finding out that the boyfriend he'd loved for many years was cheating on him and yes ! they had both made great strides towards their shared goal of moving on and putting what had happened in the past those very thoughts still had very much lingered at the back of his mind even now when they should be sharing his happy moment together for once in a very long time and as much he hated to admit it and as much as he hated to lose adrian ─── he was right that would so much better for them to part ways for now and silently work on things their own little ways with the thoughts of loosing his boyfriend a second time had only served to break him down even more than the initial news of finding out about the cheating ever did he honestly was already such a MESS inside not really able to trust not even himself , let alone the other people in his life he was already in shock from hearing those words coming out of their mouth that at first he didn't seem to react to their words instantly dropping the smile from his face and avoiding any and all eye contact with them before he'd finally spoken up “ you're right i understand. ” he said wrapping his arms around them one last time in return leaning in close to their body wanting to savior their warmth for the last time “ but please can we still sleep together in bed i just feel so scared without you. ” he added looking up at them fighting back the tears already welling up in his eyes.

in honor of bang chan's birthday pls click the ♡ for a starter from one of my bang chan fcs or any of my other skz fcs thanks.

damagcdart​:

peony grasped at her heart, over the dark maroon sweater that kept her cozy and warm. there was something wrong, in the sense of the unknown. she placed the cups on a nearby place, and ran the tissues along the areas that got splashed, thanking him again in the process. 

makade nenookaasi shared the wealth with nature, all things born with the air, the wind, the fire and the water. all of the elements were known as home to the spirits who had guided and allowed peace to the journey forward. once she realized that the love between the two slowly started cracking, the heart of hers had tried to stay strong and calm the emotions that had fallen. her heart, her soul wanted to bind the broken connection, though this different kind of wealth was so unknown to anything she believed in … though, to survive, she had to make the abrupt decision to leave. to run in hopes that reincarnation could bring them together, that spiritual love can last longer than humans know. she didn’t want this to become a mere dream, in which she would wake up crying, and craving the warmth that she knew with him. the birch bark canoe no longer brought a piece of adventure, as the tears in the water below stained her eyes. the cries had gone on, a part of her heart had been missing, the second they lost physical contact. her form had died, the emotions went to the water, the flame, the gusts of wind that travel with the leaves. in order to keep her mind at bay, she made sure to give life meaning, to appreciate each and every single day… and now that she had her last breath… all she wondered was when they would meet again and how powerful it would be to look at him, knowing the love she had didn’t shatter. she kept it growing instead. 

“i am a party goer. and don’t apologize. i do happen to be lost in the train of thought too. you aren’t alone is what i mean to say. i got invited out too. three month anniversary of friendship.” she had hoped to remain in a steady headspace, but being beside this stranger… drumming. she could hear a hummingbird, along with a woman singing. “you… “ peony wanted to apologize as she went to wipe a tear off her cheek. more and more tears simultaneously fell. “i don’t… trust me. i don’t want to cry in front of you. i don’t know what’s gotten into me.” she turned her face away. “honestly, i was going to offer you a drink for helping out… but now i feel pathetic asking you while i am a mess.”  

it was more and more evident that just being near each other was already starting to effect each other more than they’d hope. which from the outside looking in was rather strange was they had NEVER meet one another beforehand and there clearly was such a deep and profound connection already built up between the both of them and obviously it would be like he wanted to jump to conclusion here and just come out with it that he thinks that they are his long lost lover that had died alongside their love many many years ago how ridiculous would that sound to any other person   ?   he’d just as quickly laughed at mocked for the duration he would studying at the school at least that was the mere thoughts that were running through his mind at that time it was something he was telling himself moreso knowing if anyone of his brothers were here with him right now they’d just as easily tell him that there was no proven way that they were them that what he was feeling inside was nothing unless he could prove for a fact that the person standing in front of him right now was the same person that he had loved with all of his undying heart that he’d just as easily given over his kingdom and then some to her in order to make her happy and that he’d gave up all of his riches and privileges that he had at birth right he’d gladly throw all of that way like it was nothing to have her again in his loving arms. but then again he could not as easily deny what he was feeling inside of his heart that as previously stated that he just felt in his gut feeling that despite never seeing this person ever in his newly reincarnated life was the one his only true love but how exactly was he going to prove them to anyone let alone to the people that he grown to care for over the centuries as them just randomly out of nowhere crying was just a mere coincidence maybe it was because of something unrelated in their life maybe it really was the universe’s way of saying that this was the sign that they had finally found one another after many centuries looking for each other through their shared lifetimes he just had to stick out with them in order to found out the truth of who exactly they were and if they really were the one he’d been looking for all of this time and plus it would have been more than rude to leave them in such distress like this without trying his best to console them as it was just in his nature that hadn’t changed since he’d died all of those years ago to help out anyone and everyone who were in trouble letting out a cheeky laugh in response to their previous words covering his mouth with his free hand  “   HAHA that makes sense.   ”  he said before his lips began to slump downward when he’d noticed that they had began to cry out of nowhere showing how worried he’d become of her despite not really knowing that much about them at this party gently placing his arms onto her back rubbing slowly and taking her hand into his  “   oh  !  no what happened   ?   did i say something wrong   ?   i’m so sorry if i did.   ”