Ah Between Us Is So Good! But I Keep Having Flashbacks Of Until We Meet Again And I Am Just Crying Inside.

Not sure how many people play Fire Emblem: Three Hopes but like Lindhart, Shez, and Petra I find are a wonderful combination. And I need to see them together.

4 Minutes the series, my rambles about episode 2. Spoilers ahead.

Okay, so the opening of the episode has a guy in a hoodie holding the rock. It looks to be night and it’s the same place that Tle takes Great and Dome. Who’s the guy in the hoodie? I think he’s probably the one who killed the guys brother (I can’t remember his name right now). Now I recognize people mainly by hair so I have no idea who hoodie guy is and hoodie guy is what I’m calling him. Now when Tle, Great, and Dome arrive, none of them have any outer jackets or hoodies or anything. Though we don’t see the dead body at any point so until shown onscreen it’s still unknown who exactly the brother is. Like I thought it could be Tle or Dome since I don’t know how exactly the time travel works or if it’s all fake so I’m I’m just rambling. Theorizing isn’t really my thing and normally I’m way far off so take these thoughts as what they are, random thoughts of mine :3

Anyway something I thought was interesting. In all of the time jumps so far, the original timeline Great tends to run away. When he hits the lady with his car, bumps into the doctor, his first instinct is to run. He’s not a bad guy to his core, just a scared one. And as for what we’ve seen of his family, it’s a shock he didn’t turn out worse. His friends aren’t exactly the best as far as we’ve seen. Like he doesn’t care as much for his family reputation. When he gives the flowers he takes out his phone but as far as I recall we never saw him take a picture. He didn’t want to in the first place and it looked to me like he didn’t do it in the end. He’s also not great at handling emotions. When the woman was talking to him he fled. It looked like he wasn’t sure what to do and the whole time he wanted to run away. He does care about what happened but has no clue of what to do when the lady apologized to him. He looked a bit lost to me. I just find this intriguing. Just something I noticed and thought was cool. Ahh okay enough rambling for now. Hope you guys are enjoying this show too! Have fun!

Haven’t been able to fall asleep and the amount of work I need to get done feels too much right now. Feels like I’m probably gonna fail, which makes me feel like shit. But even if I do fail

I could always retake the course. I just don’t want to disappoint people. So what happened was I was taking three courses this semester and prioritized one over the other two causing me to fall behind in both. Now it’s finals week and ima till so fucking behind. So I don’t know if I’ll pass them. And I don’t know what I’ll do if I don’t. I’ve almost caught up in one of them but still. Feels like I should just cut my losses and focus on which one I’m more likely to pass. But I want to try. And by trying to do both I might just shoot myself in the foot doing this.

But what if I succeed? What if I fail? If I succeed I’d most likely get a c, if I’m lucky a b. If I fail I could retake the course. Don’t know if I’d still qualify for financial assistance though if I fail these two. I mean I’m not on a scholarship so it’s not that big of a deal I suppose but still. You know I never planned to go to college. Like when I was in school it was expected of me. But school really fucked me up. Had to get As all the time that I’d breakdown over get a b or just a fucking 90%. It wouldn’t matter which assignment, or how many points it was. I would stress over everything. Then I failed a few classes (there were extenuating circumstances that added to this), but it was so freeing. I redid the courses over summer and just felt so alive. The world didn’t implode and I was still alive. It had a lot less impact than I expected. I mean I was still pressured to get good grades but it didn’t hurt as much. Now though getting an A doesn’t feel like an achievement or something that I accomplished, it still just feels like an expectation. So it still hurts when I fail to meet it. And so I decided after graduating that there was no way in hell id go to college. But then I took a single course and honestly enjoyed it. It does help that I qualified for some financial things that cover me for a few years (which really was the deciding factor, it only lasts a set amount of years for me so if I don’t take courses now the money assistance would expire so gotta use it while I can). But old mindsets keep creeping back in. Lack of faith in myself, what could very well be executive dysfunction, mental health issues, just piled up again this semester. Keep thinking I overcame it that I’m doing better and it all comes crashing back. It’s hard. And I don’t know how to tell people that. I just accept my actions as they are and continue on. And I fucked up a lot this semester. But I also did try. There’s also the fact that I get sick when I stress out now. Started happening junior year of high school. On the very last day of school I puked due to stress. Ended up not going cause I couldn’t tell if I was sick or not. Since then whenever I stress out or overthink I puke. I’ve gotten better at managing it but I also have started to get nauseous when anxious so I need to do something. I’ve been meaning to meditate consistently but it’s the consistent part I’m having trouble with. Though I do think it would help. So I guess I’m just worried. And I still have all the work I need to do. I know I’m gonna try but if I fail anyway it’s gonna hurt so much. But I’ll be prepared for next time. No matter the outcome I’ll be prepared for next time. Okay, yeah. I’ll be okay. Sorry just needed to vent. Needed a moment to breathe.

Spill the tea sis.

Ah I can’t find the post anymore so guess I’ll make my own. To anyone getting the cursed tubi ad, did you know you can get rid of it? If you filter out the tubi hashtag it goes away (so far this has worked for me, I have not done any other testing so idk if it’ll definitely work for you but I think it should). Hope this helps.

Do we submit reasons for the poll characters here? If not then sorry for the long character spiel.

I know there’s hardly any time left for this but I just wanted to send this in to protect one of my comfort characters. Guo Changcheng. For the greenest flag category. So he’s basically just a literal puppy. Thrown to the wolves on his first day of work, he tries hard to connect and help out his coworkers. Clumsy and a bit lost most times, he will do his best to cheer anyone up. Constantly taking notes so that he can be of better help and being the one who always comforts others. He tries his absolute hardest to learn so that he can protect his friends, so much so that it can be detrimental to himself. Has literally pushed through death defying experiences and injuries just to give strangers comfort. (Next part could spoil but only if one knows the show. I don’t think it spoils anything with the way it’s written but just want to write this just in case.) He won’t let you die alone, even if it kills him.

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I… have had an accident prone week. I just don’t get how I keep on managing to injure myself. Content warning, I talk about getting injured, mainly bruises. I have managed to injure myself every day this week. Monday I nicked/stabbed myself with wire cause of a project I was working on (I don’t even know how it happened, the opposite end somehow got me while I was cutting the piece. Like it’s not bad but I can’t use the finger cause it hurts to lift stuff. And it’s on my dominant hand TvT). The other day I banged up my knee on a desk. Whyyyy, I was just standing up. And now I’ve hit the back of my foot on a charger/cord. It’s already bruising. I… it’s just become Wednesday. TvT. What’s gonna happen today 🫠

I feel like part of the reason I’m not enjoying Xenoblade 3 as much as Xenoblade chronicles 1 is that every character essentially has the same backstory. They’re all child soldiers. Which, is kinda boring. There’s no interesting dynamic of the meeting of different cultural views like there is in the first game. I highly enjoyed learning about the different ways of life, belief systems, and biases that the first game has. It also doesn’t help that the tutorial is multiple chapters long in 3. And even then you still get more and unlock important exploration abilities based on the heroes you meet far later than anticipated. The amount of times I have tried to jump on a zip line only to not have that ability, so all I can do is stare at a chest beyond my reach. I just feel like some parts of the game could be executed in a way that feels less of a slog. I have to say the more I play it it is a tad more enjoyable than when I started the game. However, it really doesn’t help that none of the characters have a differing backstory so far. Ah that’s enough of my ramblings for now. Have a wonderful day/night!

That’s it imma start collecting these. Every time something uses an unfathomable amount of candles all I can think about is everything going up in flames.

Ahhhhhhhhhh

My rambles about Hidden moon the series. Spoilers for episodes 1-9.

Like I already thought Khen was dead and that they could have been stuck in limbo but I didn’t think that would happen. T^T whhyyyyyyy. My heart. Not a shred of happiness for my lovelies. These shows are breaking meeeee. I wanted more friendship moments between the main group but all I got was pain and suffering and then… and then that just happens. I hope they’re happy wherever they ended up. I don’t expect this show to have a happy ending but I hope it’s at least a bittersweet one. Let them find peace, please.

I’m gonna go cry in a corner. Maybe I’ll rewatch Rak Diao for healing or finish Your Tooth My Love (just started and it has the fluff I need right now).