Random Thoughts:

I… have had an accident prone week. I just don’t get how I keep on managing to injure myself. Content warning, I talk about getting injured, mainly bruises. I have managed to injure myself every day this week. Monday I nicked/stabbed myself with wire cause of a project I was working on (I don’t even know how it happened, the opposite end somehow got me while I was cutting the piece. Like it’s not bad but I can’t use the finger cause it hurts to lift stuff. And it’s on my dominant hand TvT). The other day I banged up my knee on a desk. Whyyyy, I was just standing up. And now I’ve hit the back of my foot on a charger/cord. It’s already bruising. I… it’s just become Wednesday. TvT. What’s gonna happen today 🫠

My grades are glitched and I’ve been having to go back and forth on messaging people to try to get it fixed. It’s hard though cause thinking about grades can send me spiraling. It just feels so suffocating and then I start panicking and so I literally cannot let myself think about it or just ruminate on it. I feel like a bother having to message my professor this much. It should be fine though, yeah? I mean this is their job so hopefully yeah? I managed to send out another email to my professor today after sending one to my advisor so fingers crossed that everything will be fixed after this one. I hope, it’s like painful for me to think about this stuff so it just gets increasingly distressing to me. One day I’ll figure out what all mental things I have but until then, this public diary will do. Cause for some reason this helps me more than an actual diary. Don’t know why screaming into the void is more comforting than into a notepad for me. Well if it works to make me feel better than it’s worth it. I am still hungry so might do that. Would help if I could overthinking but eh rambling my thoughts at least gets them out of my head so there’s that. Okay I’m feeling a bit better now, still hungry, but better. Signing off for now. - PendingHopes

Me every time I send an ask

Should I do this? Should it be anonymous? What if I’m bothering them? Did I word it right? I should delete it, right? Mmm but I want to ask. (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

The Day I Loved You - Filipino bl. This show slays, especially Nikko. He’s awesome. I see a lot of people saying it has Heartstopper vibes. I do see some semblance in the art styles and special effects. It’s really cute so far and the characters are fun. School delinquent gets caught committing vandalism and is punished. What does he have to do? Community service and join the dance troupe. School president and leader of the dance troupe, Nikko has to teach the school delinquent to dance. Honestly it’s just really fun so far.

Old-fashioned Cupcake - Cute romance story. Two office workers hang out and have fun. Visiting dessert shops and enjoying life. Just a cute story.

Make a Wish (2023) - An Angel and a doctor who sees ghosts. A goofy and fun story so far. Mystery, drama, comedy, what conspiracies will these two unveil?

Triage - A doctor stuck in a time loop. Forced to find a way to save a young man from death’s clutches, watch as this doctor stumbles his way through each loop. With an Angel by his side to keep him on track and no way of escape, what will this doctor do?

Memory in the Letter - On the night a comet passed by an event linking two worlds together occurred. Now with a mirror showing another world, how will these two new kinda roommates handle life?

A Secretly Love - MC has had an ongoing crush for 7 years. Having already confessed, he is fine knowing that his crush is happy. Now going to the same university, mc has unfortunate run ins with his oblivious crush.

My Secret Love - School pranksters and club presidents are forced to work together. The chancellor is definitely abusing her authority. Has similar vibes to bad buddy with the neighbor situation. It’s cute but the chancellor is definitely evil. What she’s doing is wrong on so many levels, otherwise enjoy.

My Precious (2024) -

Tokyo Tower (2024) - Seems like a cute romance story.

Takara no Vidro -

Vanishing My First Love / My Love Mix-Up (Kieta Hatsukoi) - Super cute Highschool romance.

Psych-hunter - Amnesiac Jiang Shuo gets entangled in a web of murders. Caught in a game where lives are on the line, what can he do? Qing Yi Heng, a psychologist, and (I haven’t found her name yet), a cop, have their own agendas/motives for getting involved. Now working together, will they be able to solve these crimes and save everyone? Will they be able to survive?

Killer and Healer - A doctor and officer begrudgingly work together to solve crimes. I enjoyed this show however there are two endings to this show. One good, one bad. Choose whichever one you want, I vote the good ending is the real ending. Cause that’s what these characters deserve. They deserve happiness.

The Golden Eyes - A pawn shop owner gets super eyes? That is a horrible description, I can do better. Just uh give me a moment. I need to research this show a bit more.

Celestial Authority Academy -

Blacklist - Blackmail, manipulation, murder. Bloodthirsty and dangerous, how will these students survive the hell they’ve been put into. Is it all orchestrated? Who started this? A game they all have to play, who will survive to the end? (Take this overview with a grain of salt. I remember almost nothing from this show)

My roommate is a fairy fox -

Remember my boy -

Queer Beauty -

Love is more than a word -

The most beautiful place is my place -

Theory of Love - Ah unrequited love. Best friends and roomates. One has been in love with the other for years while the other is a playboy. Drama, friendship, betrayal. How will this story go down?

Tohon Chocolate - I’m not a fan of the main romance. The main romantic interest is homophobic and a jealous douchebag most of the time. He may change, it’s just my current understanding of the show storyline. I like the side characters such as the roommates and rich guy (he needs to learn to take no for an answer but otherwise he’s not that bad). Childhood friends reunite after years apart. One has had a crush on the other for years, what will happen now?

S.C.I. Mystery - I keep misreading the title as CSI but it’s not, brain please. I haven’t watched this one yet but from my current understanding it’s mystery and detective type stuff. Looks super cool. Special Crime Investigation Team. That’s what it stands for. Childhood rivals are forced to work together to solve crimes.

Crossfire - it’s about gamers and that’s all I really know. It has the same actor that’s in Tomb of the Sea (lost tomb series) which is how I found out about it. Looks fun.

Cherry Magic - ah, secondhand embarrassment. We meet again. Just a really nice and goofy show. The characters are super expressive and the romance is cute. I loved it.

Sweet Combat -

The Long Ballad -

Peach of Time - it’s sad… I don’t wanna deal with its sadness so I haven’t watched it fully.

You Light Up My Life Again - University setting. Roommates, music, and sports. Enemies to lovers is what it currently appears to be.

Although I Love You and You? - A restaurant owner falls for a salaryman. Bro has fallen hard. It’s a really cute watch so far.

Favoritism of the God - A student recently confessed to his crush only to trip into oncoming traffic. Unfortunately, truck-kun failed to isekai the mc. I’m not that far into this show so I’m not exactly certain what happens. Essentially, mc gets offered a deal by a god of a shrine he visited 100 times. What does he choose to do with this deal? Well he decides to become his crush’s ideal type. He believes that means becoming a girl. I don’t know how well this show will handle that but that’s the premise. I’m only on episode 2 at the moment. I don’t feel like continuing it at the moment but if you watch it let me know what you think please.

Nishiogikubo Mitsuboshi Youshudou - A chef recently quit his job, reunites with old classmates. A bar for everyone, come join these old friends as they take a break from life and live in the present. Will they find what they are looking for? (Honestly I’m loving this show. The same actor from cherry magic is in this one. It’s full of emotions and friendship. A nice comfy watch.)

A man who defied the world of bl - The theme song is super catchy. This is extraordinarily painful for me to watch. It’s goofy and comedic but I get really bad secondhand embarrassment. It’s full of cliches and silly tv show romantic scenarios. If this is what you’re looking for have fun! If not, no worries there’s plenty other shows out there for you to enjoy! What in the bl tropes is this? I’ve made it a bit of a ways into it and it’s mainly just a comedic goofy show. It’s extraordinarily hard for me to watch cause of secondhand embarrassment but it is a nice chill watch.

My personal weatherman - A broke mangaka is offered a place to live by his senior in university. Living expenses are fully covered as long as he does everything his senior tells him to. What exactly is their relationship?

Spring of crush/love in spring- Similar concept to Nobleman Ryu’s Wedding. A slave ran away and has to change his identity in order to not get caught. His father’s old friend makes a deal with him. He has to pretend to be his third daughter out of wedlock in order to survive. Unfortunately, the old friend’s wife is not a fan and after a year she sets up a wedding for the mc. How will mc survive? (I can’t find the next episode TvT I’ll have to continue watching this one later)

Oh! My Assistant - Fairly cute romance story. A manga artist that does X-rated works needs to hire an assistant.

Our dating sim - Old best friends reunite after one of them vanished the day they confessed their love. Now working in the same company, what will happen? (I’m on episode 6)

Love Tractor - A top of the class law student takes a break from the social expectations placed upon him. Now hiding away at his grandfathers farm, he gets roped into working for his grandfather. What will he learn from these friendly faces?

Fudanshi bartender - this is painful for me to watch, because again. Secondhand embarrassment is strong with this one. Okay I can’t handle the secondhand embarrassment from this show so I don’t know much about it. Have fun. A bartender who secretly likes bl and makes manga based on the interactions he sees at the bar.

Justice in the dark - the Abyss - Seems interesting so far. A strange event caused 1.3% of people to loose emotions. (Carole and Tuesday did something similar and addressed it well. There is a medical thing where this just is. It doesn’t make someone good or bad, it just is). However, society believes the rising crime rate to be because of this. Wanting to put into effect laws where people are forced to take a blood tests to see if they’re part of the 1.3%, society is in turmoil. Our main characters investigate the murders occurring and have to figure out who all is behind them.

Craving you - A chef and a singer work together as a business strategy to promote each other’s works. However, their pasts haunt them. Will they be able to find closure? Will they be able to move on?

After Sundown - movie. The trailer looked intriguing. Karma, fate, destiny. When one is destined to fall, his parents decide to tie his fate to another in order to save him. (I haven’t watched it yet. The trailer makes me think it will have a similar plot line to the Sign series.)

Love Mate - An office worker who doesn’t believe in love gets a new colleague who is determined to teach mc about love. Why? To be honest I’m still unsure as I’m only on the first couple episodes but if the assumption is correct, the new guy says he fell in love at first sight so uh let’s just go with that.

Make it right -

Twenty twenty - Twenty years old… what does one do now? Growing up is strange and figuring out what to do is difficult. Can they figure out what they want from life? (I’ve only watched a bit of episode 1)

Senpai, this can’t be love - well, that escalated quickly. Hmm I’m sensing secondhand embarrassment on the horizon… New socially awkward cgi worker ends up under the mentorship of a friendly experienced cgi worker. Extrovert vs introvert, will they be able to properly communicate? I’ve just started episode two and wow, I’m scared. It seems interesting though and I like the outro song so imma try to see if I can handle this show.

Ah this one is getting a bit long so I’ll end it here. Have a marvelous day/night!

I kept adding more stuff to this so I’ll post it as is. I’ll edit the missing overviews later. Have fun!

Sleep is cruel. I go to bed before midnight, I wake up at midnight. I go to bed at midnight I wake up at 5am. I go to bed later than midnight I wake up at 2pm.

Im done, oh I’m fucking done finals have ended and I can breathe again. Thank fuck man. Actually slept last night dear lord. Feeling better also I fucking love end of the world with you apparently, it’s so fucking good man. Also stealer treasure keeper is fucking great might I say. Circle two worlds connected is also fucking fantastic.

Ah I can’t find the post anymore so guess I’ll make my own. To anyone getting the cursed tubi ad, did you know you can get rid of it? If you filter out the tubi hashtag it goes away (so far this has worked for me, I have not done any other testing so idk if it’ll definitely work for you but I think it should). Hope this helps.

i before e except after c or when as in ei (a) as in neighbor or weigh

Science wtf man. Why

I mean I guess since it’s pronounced sci-ence

Honestly how I’ve been feeling. First off while Nakan isn’t good he hasn’t actually fully harmed anyone. (Yes yes he made a kid attack tong with a knife but that wasn’t with the intent to kill, just to gain knowledge. Listen I’m not saying he’s good, I’m just saying he ain’t the worst). Second off this episode while he’s choking tong he still isn’t doing it with the intent to kill him just get him to join his side. And while the other vampires are certainly more murderous we don’t actually know if anyone in the blood drive is actually dead. And second off, we know Thara is willing to use anyone she can to get the upper hand (including a sick kid). And let’s not forget the opening of episode one, guys, the opening involves who I’m assuming to be Tong’s parents dying. And yet somehow Tong is alive after that? Hmm wonder why, wonder who possibly could have killed them? (*looks at Thara suspiciously*). Anyway I need Nakan and Tonkla to have the most toxic love, please. Okay okay I’m done for now.

okay but hear me out, obviously i am enchanted by miss thara's beauty but isn't she like, too pretty to be just that nice?

and what about this-

so what if she wants the golden blood to herself? and she intends to do a ritual to get healthy and continue being pretty and young again when tong turn 21?

what if nakan is not the big bad and instead wants to spread the golden blood amongst the vampires so they can feel things again?

what if miss thara has been playing mark all along and later tong finds out and thinks mark was in on it?

or am i watching too many movies ?

4 Minutes the series, my rambles about episode 2. Spoilers ahead.

Okay, so the opening of the episode has a guy in a hoodie holding the rock. It looks to be night and it’s the same place that Tle takes Great and Dome. Who’s the guy in the hoodie? I think he’s probably the one who killed the guys brother (I can’t remember his name right now). Now I recognize people mainly by hair so I have no idea who hoodie guy is and hoodie guy is what I’m calling him. Now when Tle, Great, and Dome arrive, none of them have any outer jackets or hoodies or anything. Though we don’t see the dead body at any point so until shown onscreen it’s still unknown who exactly the brother is. Like I thought it could be Tle or Dome since I don’t know how exactly the time travel works or if it’s all fake so I’m I’m just rambling. Theorizing isn’t really my thing and normally I’m way far off so take these thoughts as what they are, random thoughts of mine :3

Anyway something I thought was interesting. In all of the time jumps so far, the original timeline Great tends to run away. When he hits the lady with his car, bumps into the doctor, his first instinct is to run. He’s not a bad guy to his core, just a scared one. And as for what we’ve seen of his family, it’s a shock he didn’t turn out worse. His friends aren’t exactly the best as far as we’ve seen. Like he doesn’t care as much for his family reputation. When he gives the flowers he takes out his phone but as far as I recall we never saw him take a picture. He didn’t want to in the first place and it looked to me like he didn’t do it in the end. He’s also not great at handling emotions. When the woman was talking to him he fled. It looked like he wasn’t sure what to do and the whole time he wanted to run away. He does care about what happened but has no clue of what to do when the lady apologized to him. He looked a bit lost to me. I just find this intriguing. Just something I noticed and thought was cool. Ahh okay enough rambling for now. Hope you guys are enjoying this show too! Have fun!