Random Thoughts On 4 Minutes The Series. Spoilers For Episode 4.

Do you see my vision?

Okay okay I just watch Color Rush 2 and (spoilers included) hear me out.

Poly. That’s all I really want to say. What if, all three of them just start going out. I think it’d be fun. But also, I just, I don’t think the way they see colors would be like that. I don’t think seeing colors would automatically be euphoria or anything, like yes I enjoy colors but hearing about colors would probably make them sound fantasy like with how others would stress over how much better it is but it’s not like seeing in grayscale is bad. Like okay I’m sorry but I think it’d be way more overwhelming and headache inducing to suddenly see more colors. It’d be interesting but something someone has to get used to, and there’d be a disconnect for a while. Anyway, sorry I have a lot of thoughts about how the shock of being bombarded with differing visuals would take a toll (listen I know he faints the first few times but also like I don’t think seeing colors would automatically be magical. I think it’d be more nauseating for a while there.) ahem, okay yeah still love it I just, lots of what-ifs, you know (and it’s super interesting to me, these aspects)? Anyway yeah poly, I think it’d be cute. Do I think they’d all get along? No. I think they’d need to get used to it first but I would love to see how they would interact with each other. Yo I’m just imagining so many different scenarios. Clearly the first things that happens when (I don’t remember any of their names) the guy (the probe? one) shows back up without a mask and both the others faint. I just, man I think it’d fun. Okay I’m done rambling for now. I’ve got sooo much shit to do but this makes me feel happy so yeah. Have a good day/night!

Ah Between Us is so good! But I keep having flashbacks of Until We Meet Again and I am just crying inside. Ah I loved that show. I’m so giddy right now so imma just leave this little blurb here. There’s more shows for me to watch and ramble about so until we meet again, have a good day! 💕

Okay so I’m watching Circle: Two Worlds Connected and oh my goodness I love this freaking show. It is soooo much all the time. The fucking mystery and the way the story is layer out ajdjdhdjdidndjdkdkdj. It’s so freaking good and whenever I figure something out before it happens I’m just like yes! I did it but also noooooo fuck no please don’t be that. Gah I fucking love it it’s so fucking painful I just wanna know everything already. Anyway uh it’s just a really good show, highly recommend. I’m currently on episode 8 so uh, gonna get back to it. Have a wonderful day/night!

Random thoughts on 4 minutes the series. Spoilers for episode 6.

Well this Great is kinda adorable in his unhinged way. Ah, he’s trying so hard. Now Great had no idea what would happen if he tried to save Nan and Tyme. Like he had no reason to think these random guys with guns would stop for him. Dude’s scared, always has been. This show is so gonna break me by the end of it. Tonkla though, good on him. Doing exactly what he had planned. He got what he wanted but now what? What’s he gonna do now? Dome is still gone and now so are the perpetrators. So now that he’s got nothing left and no goal to go towards, what will he do? Also did Great’s mom do something to Korn’s mom? She mentioned how if she didn’t do what she did they would have had to live in hiding as mistress and son. What did she do? So many questions. I wonder how this is going to go. 2 episodes left.

TAE MYUNGHA x A GROWING LOVE FOR LIFE

i finally realized that all the answers i had hoped for were in day to day life that’s too mundane to be “fate,” and yet too beautiful to be “chance.” happiness must be hidden somewhere in each of our days.

love for love’s sake (2024), dir. kim gyun-ah / fatima aamer bilal, from so this is all i will ever be? / mahmoud darwish, if i were another / rainer maria rilke, “the prodigal son.” the selected poetry of rainer maria rilke / sarah waters, from the little stranger / virginia woolf, from a letter to edward sackaville-west / anon on gentleearth / kate rokowski, “a good day” / mary oliver / ocean vuong, “the last dinosaur” from time is a mother / richard siken on twitter / james baldwin, from “they can’t turn back” / heather havrilesky, ask polly / llya kaminsky, from “dancing in odessa”/ fariha roisin, how to cure a ghost / mary oliver, from “work, sometimes”, new and selected poems, volume 2 / maggie millner, couplets: a love story

My grades are glitched and I’ve been having to go back and forth on messaging people to try to get it fixed. It’s hard though cause thinking about grades can send me spiraling. It just feels so suffocating and then I start panicking and so I literally cannot let myself think about it or just ruminate on it. I feel like a bother having to message my professor this much. It should be fine though, yeah? I mean this is their job so hopefully yeah? I managed to send out another email to my professor today after sending one to my advisor so fingers crossed that everything will be fixed after this one. I hope, it’s like painful for me to think about this stuff so it just gets increasingly distressing to me. One day I’ll figure out what all mental things I have but until then, this public diary will do. Cause for some reason this helps me more than an actual diary. Don’t know why screaming into the void is more comforting than into a notepad for me. Well if it works to make me feel better than it’s worth it. I am still hungry so might do that. Would help if I could overthinking but eh rambling my thoughts at least gets them out of my head so there’s that. Okay I’m feeling a bit better now, still hungry, but better. Signing off for now. - PendingHopes

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Do we submit reasons for the poll characters here? If not then sorry for the long character spiel.

I know there’s hardly any time left for this but I just wanted to send this in to protect one of my comfort characters. Guo Changcheng. For the greenest flag category. So he’s basically just a literal puppy. Thrown to the wolves on his first day of work, he tries hard to connect and help out his coworkers. Clumsy and a bit lost most times, he will do his best to cheer anyone up. Constantly taking notes so that he can be of better help and being the one who always comforts others. He tries his absolute hardest to learn so that he can protect his friends, so much so that it can be detrimental to himself. Has literally pushed through death defying experiences and injuries just to give strangers comfort. (Next part could spoil but only if one knows the show. I don’t think it spoils anything with the way it’s written but just want to write this just in case.) He won’t let you die alone, even if it kills him.

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Okay this is just a neat lil vent post. So the rest is just me rambling about random things.

Okay I’ve warned you and you’re still reading for some reason so uh hi. My brain’s just been a little too loud for me recently. Ah I guess I can talk about my blog lore. The reason I created this was when I was going through an existential crisis and just needed an outlet. And rambling about shows helped. So now when my mind is too loud I tuck into this tiny corner and wrap myself up in happiness. It’s sorta comforting. I’ve never been good at writing in a journal but for some reason just typing like this helps. Puts my mind at ease and lets me rant about my interests. It’s calming.

Been listening to the song alive by rose on loop for the past few days cause I need the stimulation and no other noise was working. On a side note I only found the song a few days ago as well. It’s nice. Kinda reminds me of the Christian music I heard as a kid. Side note: I grew up Christian, now though I don’t really believe but still view it as part of me. Even if I can’t believe old habits and mindsets remain. it's a comfort i miss but not one i find myself regaining. not yet anyway

on another note i get sick when im stressed. or overthinking. or both. stress now makes me physically ill so ive been trying to find ways to stop that from happening. the way it makes me ill is typically me vomiting. so now im trying out meditation. it seems to help a bit but maybe i should do it more to decreass my stress sooner then letting it build up. i guess i just need to get more used to it. calming myself. not tensing as much.

ah im compiling a list of dramas i watch with detective in the name. i love my detective dramas so i find it fun. now, not all of these i have watched yet but they match so: (^w^) hehe~ anyway: zombie detective, vampire detective, ghost detective, insect detective. so many with similar titles and i love them. my roommate is a detective is also in the list but i want to do the most similar titles first and then extend it. ah i love zombie detective so much. and vampire detective has a beautiful team who protect each other to hell and back and i am here for it. man i need to finish that show.

ah im feeling better so i shall get going for now. Have a wonderful day/night!

You know whenever someone faints in a movie and wake up they automatically try to get up? And the other characters try to stop them. I always found that odd like “why would they get up, they’re injured”. Now I understand, it can be very confusing. Especially when you wake up with a bunch of people staring at you and for some reason you’re on the ground. That’s to say I get it now. (I get adverse reactions to shots, started happening a few years ago. Started fainting. And let’s just say it gets very confusing when you were just standing up and then wake up on the ground. I mean I don’t really feel injured when it happens. So it’s like of course imma get up I’m on the ground. Anyway apparently it’s what happens when your flight or fight response kicks in and the adrenaline has nowhere to go plus lack of blood flow. Speaking of which if you wiggle your feet (at the ankles, like up and down) it can help with blood flow and I have remained conscious since. Sometimes I can tell when I’m about to faint and can warn people. Like the edges of my vision will start filling with like black static and then start going towards the center. Once it completely takes over my vision I am out, but if I notice it happening I’ve been able to reach out and grab my friends arm before passing out so I’ve been caught more than once. But sometimes I forget I have this reaction, though now most people who work where I’ve gotten a shot are aware of this since I, well, forgot or you know, found out while there. )