Maybe I Am A Bit Burnt Out

4 months [ 🫠I need this to work ]

I need to be skinny by my birthday (i have 6 months) im gonna work for it.

Accidentally fasting has to be the best things ever. Like I don't need food. It's obvious I eat because I'm bored not hungry. I need to do better.

Yep, I'm the girl who st@rves but still ends up fat cause I'm a weak b*tch

having an 3d is literally just waiting 24/7

- waiting to w3igh in

- waiting for your next meal / when you can eat

- waiting for ppl to notice your wl

- waiting for the mirror to change

- waiting for the "special number"

waiting waiting waiting . . . it sucks.

Before you report someone's blog and take away their safe space...

Ed's are the most lonely and isolating illnesses there is. You are accepted only if you're successfully recovering, otherwise you're automatically problematic and promoting. Your body and habits around eating are triggering. You're demonetized for simply having a sickness.

People with ed's will always find their triggers, no matter how hard you try to block, report and all. But the thing is, you have to find these spaces. Closed spaces. If we don't have those, people will take their ed's on TikTok or other platforms where they will eventually pop up to everyone to see. If someone looks for these spaces, they're already sick. No one will GET sick by looking at someone's blogs.

These spaces let's you be honest, vent, have people and friends that all go through same things. You're less lonely. These spaces can be toxic, but when you find the right people it can be uplifting and actually good for your mental health: you're not alone.

These days people are mostly nice and pro recovery. M34nsp0 is something only kids post these days anymore. We connect, we vent, we help each other. Until WE are ready to recover. Forced recovery will never work the same as choosing recovery yourself. Reporting everything makes everything worse: you get isolated again, you're lonely again. Most people who D13 from Ed's d13 from taking their own life... It's the loneliness and depression that takes them eventually.

So if you see someone's Ed page, let them have it. Block it if you find it disturbing, but that can be the only thing keeping them alive atm. Just because YOU feel like it's not good, doesn't give you the right to take that safe space, friends and support from them.

If you need to find it, the sickness is already there. We will take these things to another platforms if these ones gets taken away. And then they will pop up to everyone.

So, our businesses are here, yours is there. The problem comes when you're also there, in our businesses. Protect your peace and block. Thank you.

me core

When you feel faint during a fast and you smile instead of panicking. 😭

Sometimes I imagine myself skinny, like flat stomach, small thighs and legs, small arms, small chest and there's this deep yearning that I feel lol 😭

hi babyyyy what’s ur gw?

Hello lovely. It's 45 Kg / around 100 lbs. If I can go any lower to 40 I still would. 💕

“why aren’t u eating anything” god forbid a girl has goals