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They should make a "are you mad at me" that is taken neutrally and informationally every time and doesn't make everything worse when you ask it

Bpd culture is living in constant guilt and misery over the fact that some personality disorder you had no control over and didn't ask for will permanently ruin your life and relationships forever. Nothing is more discouraging than knowing that the way I am is literally exactly what people are told to avoid in friends/partners/etc. making me virtually untouchable and most likely forever alone. The isolation really gets to me sometimes and honestly at this point I'd rather be dead than alone and hated by society for a disorder that I never even asked for in the first place.

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OCD symptom i struggle with but don't see talked about a lot: inability to trust your own memory and/or perception.

as an example: i put my headphones in my bag. i say im sure they're in my bag, but what if i imagined putting them in my bag? i have to check, so i stick my hand inside and grab them. but then i have to check *again* because what if i just so happened to have another object shaped and sized exactly like my headphones that i just forgot about? so i have to pull them out of my bag and look directly at them to fully confirm they were in my bag

this is a fairly benign example but this also happens with other worse scenarios for me and it's. not fun

nd culture is feeling like everyone hates you and not understanding why

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bpd culture is sending way too many asks directed to ur fp and now ur overthinking that they'll see the asks you sent and if they do its so fucking over (sorry if i sent so many asks btw lol)

You're okay

wouldn’t it be cool if i could just ask “hey do you still like me” without literally wanting to eat my own organs out of shame

yeah, sorry i exhibited symptoms of the disorder i told you i have. it will happen again because i have that disorder and will continue having it. hope this helps!! 🫶🫶🫶

full offense but i think a lot of you want to seem like a safe space for ppl w/ demonized disorders without actually being a safe space for ppl w/ demonized disorders. and i think its straight up just because you guys view us as though we need to be "one of the good ones" or else we're morally reprehensible and need to be excommunicated just on the off chance that we MIGHT hurt someone

bpd culture is someone ur friends with making a mean joke to you lightheartedly and getting genuinely upset about it for weeks to months

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bpd question, what exactly is splitting? i hear abt it a lot and i think i might have bpd but i can’t figure out what it is lmao

Splitting is an extreme change in thinking, and this can go both positive and negative (or black and white)

Splitting white is when you idealize and idolize someone, thinking they're the best person ever and nobody can ever compare to them, that they have no flaws, and that they'd never hurt you in any way, intentionally or unintentionally. That they always love you. They make you feel the happiest you've ever been.

Splitting black is the opposite of that. Devaluing someone, thinking that they're the worst person ever or that they've always hurt you. That they're so flawed beyond repair. That they never really loved you. Wanting to insult them and being so angry at them. Or being so distraught and depressed at the thought of them, feeling betrayed almost. Just a complete contrast to the highs you'd get from them.

You may notice it's similar to black and white thinking, but b&w thinking is in a general context, while splitting is specific to a person or group of people.

Hope that helps some!

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