Realized today that I jsut genuinely do not remember the majority of my childhood (…only stuff I remember is trauma tbh)
Most of the happy shit that I know happened was what I’ve been told happened
Do I have any recollection of that??? Noooo
"You are so mature for your age." Well, at least one of us had to act mature in this shithole excuse of a family.
“He didn’t pass as a boy, and he made for a terribly ugly girl.”
fuck.
Sorry for having symptoms of a mental illness I literally told you I have it will happen again
A relapse doesn’t erase the progress you made by staying clean.
If you’ve been clean for a day, I’m proud of you.
If you’ve been clean for a week, I’m proud of you.
If you’ve been clean for a month, I’m proud of you.
If you’ve been clean for longer, I’m proud of you.
If you relapsed after being clean for a while, I’m proud of you for staying clean however long you did. A relapse isn’t the end of the world. I’m still proud of you for everything you did to try to stay clean.
If you have tried to stay clean and failed, I’m proud of you for trying. It’s hard, I know. Don’t give up. I’m proud of you.
No matter what, I’m proud of you. I’m proud of you for everything. I’m proud of you for being alive right now. Don’t say you don’t deserve this, because you do. You very much do.
Thank you for existing.
Plan A: transition, marry my bf, get better at writing and turn it into a job
Plan B:
*screaming*
WHY DID I DO THIS I DON'T WANNA DO HW FFFFFFUCKKKK IT
Question
How fucked up of a poem is too fucked up to post
You know what absolutely boggles my mind? That healthy people exist. Genuinely healthy people. No mental illness, no physical illness, no chronic illness. Just healthy. What a life that must be.
i fucking hate it here