Loneliness…stifled By The Internet….but Ever Present.

Question

What state do you live in i need to save you from that retched family of yours

-> @spilling-my-guts-to-you-guyss

I’m not 100% comfy sharing I’m sorry 😅😅

“Oh I’m so excited for my friends birthday pool party!”

My arms/shoulders: 😈

A relapse doesn’t erase the progress you made by staying clean.

If you’ve been clean for a day, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for a week, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for a month, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for longer, I’m proud of you.

If you relapsed after being clean for a while, I’m proud of you for staying clean however long you did. A relapse isn’t the end of the world. I’m still proud of you for everything you did to try to stay clean.

If you have tried to stay clean and failed, I’m proud of you for trying. It’s hard, I know. Don’t give up. I’m proud of you.

No matter what, I’m proud of you. I’m proud of you for everything. I’m proud of you for being alive right now. Don’t say you don’t deserve this, because you do. You very much do.

Thank you for existing.

*screaming*

WHY DID I DO THIS I DON'T WANNA DO HW FFFFFFUCKKKK IT

Suddenly feeling kknda spacey and zoned out yippe

nobody:

me: *likes a post*

my ocd: was that post you liked actually good? what if that person is secretly bad and people find out and then you're a bad person by association because you liked their post? what if this post has secret dogwhistles that you don't know about? and by liking it that means you agree with it! reread it 30 times until all the words don't even seem like words anymore and the meaning is mush! what? you can't tell if it is a bad™ post? see, you actually are a bad person because a good person would be able to tell. you are going to hell now! you need to think at least 5 'good' things so you can counteract your eternal damnation!!! now now now now NOW NOW NOW!!!!

Plan A: transition, marry my bf, get better at writing and turn it into a job

Plan B:

negative affirmations

I can be worse

I still have time to fuck things up

I can kms any time I want

This house is fucking miserable

sometimes i wonder why i even bother with writing lol