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Have this rather quite shitty first attempt of me making an sfm poster :'). This took me an hour and a half. 😭 (The original idea was engie falling down the stairs but I guess he's getting chased instead ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯)

Rutilante

In some of my other social networks you can see the complete photography

Ailatan Engel • flickr • IG • MM • 500px

Maine nostalgia.

Just a blurry photo of my morning.

She wanted the smell of leaves in the air, the taste of salty water, the inner peace that you can only find in that place, her home. All the little pleasures that she considered hers to feel.

Surprisingly, those could also be found on the girl next to her. That unknown territory began to feel like home even though she was so far from it- all thanks to her. It's amazing how some carry heaven in them without even realizing it.

I love theses two!!!XD

(it's kinda blurry sorry)

happy holidays :)

is that where you live? fancy... fancy house

Yes! Mom made it for me~ It has everything in it~ Well, except for the playground that's outside. Not outside outside, just outside! It didn't have a door at first... That was funny

-Ehh, what do you mean this place doesn't have emojis?? WAIT I FOUND THE COLORS!!! ...limited colors but hey!

is that what tou look like? a fish...

Oh! Did I have to make it a picture of myself?? I thought the fish would fit better... Space fish! Mom made me a couple, as pets, they're very cute! Whenever I'm done with them, we could share some pictures! They just float around all the tiiime~

OVERSTIMULATION WARNING

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Après la pluie...(Landes) France

After the left tiny droplets on the leaves

Dany ERDOCIO

tw: identity crisis

hey brain. nice joke!! can i have my identity back now please?

when you try to share a silly story from your past and they look at you in horror and ask if youre okay

Do you enjoy being plural? I’ve heard mixed answers, mostly because some anti-Endo people are hardcore insistent that you have to be suffering to be plural. We enjoy it some days and don’t others!

Hey! I'd definitely say that the *disordered* part of plurality is something I dislike and wish I didn't have, but plurality in itself we do enjoy. We do love our headmates, even though relationships with others may be a bit strained. We have a similar pattern where some days we may hyperfixate on it intensely, and other days we absolutely hate it. There's no 'one right answer'. We love our headmates because they've protected us- we bond with them because they protected us. Some may hate their headmates, some may love their headmates. Personally, we try and make the best of it, especially since for us it's a long-term process to recovery. Focusing only on the bad parts of our disorder only hurts us. It's a spectrum, and nobody has to fit into one little box in order to be considered plural. ♥

since apparently it’s Valentine’s Day, system appreciation post!

You’re valid if you’re endogenic

2. You’re valid if you’re traumagenic.

3. You’re valid if you’re mixed origins. 4. You’re valid if you don’t know or care about your system origins. 5. You’re valid if you are a median. 6. You’re valid if you are polyfragmented. 7. You’re valid if you’re mostly blurry. 8. You’re valid if your parts are clear and distinct. 9. You’re valid if you don’t experience co-consciousness. 10. You’re valid if you experience co-consciousness. 11. You’re valid if you experience co-fronting. 12. You’re valid if you don’t experience co-fronting. 13. You’re valid if you hate being a system. 14. You’re valid if you love being a system. 15. You’re valid if you don’t know how to feel about being a system. 16. You’re valid if your trauma doesn’t fit the ‘typical norm’ or expected experience. 17. You’re valid if you have factives/fictives/fucktives/songtives, etc 18. You’re valid if you have hundreds of thousands of headmates. 19. You’re valid if you only have a few headmates. 20. You’re valid if you are looking for final fusion. 21. You’re valid if you are looking for functional multiplicity. 22. You’re valid if you’re a tulpa. 23. You’re valid if you’re an introject who doesn’t want to be like their source. 24. You’re valid if you’re an Introject who does want to be like their source. 25. You’re valid if your system isn’t very active. 26. You’re valid if your system is extremely active. 27. You’re valid if you have a core. 28. You’re valid if you don’t have a core. 29. You’re valid if you have a host. 30. You’re valid if you’re hostless. 31. You’re valid if you have a headspace. 32. You’re valid if you don’t have a headspace. 33. You’re valid if you have a relationship with another headmate. 34. You’re valid if you’re a bodily minor OR adult system. 35. You’re valid if you don’t like some/all of your headmates. 36. You’re valid if you love all your headmates. 37. You’re valid if you’re a disordered system. 38. You’re valid if you’re a non-disordered system. 39. You’re valid if you’re introject heavy. 40. You’re valid if you’re brain-made heavy. 41. You’re valid if you’re non-human heavy. 42. You’re valid if you’re covert. 43. You’re valid if you’re overt. 45. You’re valid if you’re an age regressor. 46. You’re valid if you’re a pet regressor. 47. You’re valid if you don’t identify with the body. 48. You’re valid if you do identify with the body. 49. You’re valid for feeling angry about those who hurt you. 50. You’re valid if you have a lot of control over your system. 51. You’re valid if you experience little to no control over your system. 52. You’re valid if your system structure is complex. 54. You’re valid if your system structure is simple. 55. You’re valid if you’re mono conscious. 56. You’re valid if you’re biconscious or triconscious. 57. You’re valid no matter your conscious term. 58. You’re valid if you want labels about your experiences. 59. You’re valid if you don’t want labels for your experiences. 60. You’re valid for having source trauma. 61. You’re valid for not having source trauma. 62. You’re valid for having alters split due to other alters either negatively or positively. 63. You are valid if you split for no reason, or a reason you can’t identify. 64. You’re valid for being different from the norm. 65. It’s okay to be wrong about your identity. Even if you aren’t plural, it’s what fit you at the time. Identity shifts. We’re always learning about ourselves. You made a mistake is all, you’re not a monster for making a mistake.

I could go on and on for days, but I think you get the jist.

YOU ARE VALID. NO MATTER YOUR EXPERIENCE. YOUR EXPERIENCES ARE REAL. YOU DONT NEED TO FIT INTO THE CONFINED BOX OF REQUIREMENTS TO BE CONSIDERED PLURAL.

Happy Valentines Days, everyone. <3

SYSTEM INTRO

cr: @kodaswrld (lace dividers), @boxx-town ('this collective is always open to making friends!'), @zero-templates (‘this system's alters front together'), @forrest-system-userboxes ('this system is often blurry')

hey! we're a nameless did system! this is sort of here as a recovery blog, and also to share our experiences, including ones that may be more disturbing and less talked about in this community- we're endo-friendly and neutral about most things- you do your own thing, but just don't involve us in the discourse. ^^

those who intend to involve this blog in syscourse or make it an unsafe place for systems of all origins and communities, please block us. - your opinions are valid, but this is meant to be a safe space for *all* systems. you may follow this blog if you don't believe our beliefs, but please keep those opinions to yourself unless requested. any hate comments or blogs will be blocked without notice. we're often blurry and co-con, so there often won't be any sign-offs of any sorts, but we try our best... also please don't mind our forgetfulness and lack of responses at times. we're busy, have heavy amnesia, and are physically and mentally disabled.

any triggering topics we may bring up shall be spoilered properly for those who are not in the correct headspace to read that type of content, but please be mindful that we will *not* censor our experiences. we will talk about them. it's your choice whether or not to read them. (**note: while we try our best to spoiler triggering topics properly, we don’t have the greatest of what may be considered triggering besides a few widely known ones due to desensitization. if something should require a tw that we haven’t added, please inform us promptly.**)

This intro is in the process of being reworked. Information may not be accurate.