Never Enough - Blog Posts

My tongue started bleeding, but I still couldn't taste your sweet love.

Was it my desire to be loved that made it easy for you to in on my knees.

Giving me enough to live but not to be alive.

I hope one day I will be grow enough to understand the desire to own a person's mind and concentions but never their heart.

You made me feel I'm never enough, as if my mediocrity will never be able to feed your heavy appetite, but the truth is you are not hungry you have glutani, so matter how many pieces I cut of you will still want more, till the last drop of my blood and even after that you're sweet love will stand 10 feet away from me.

“Oh, you’re too much" people said, and it wasn’t complimentary. Yes, she was too much. She felt like too much inside all the time.

So why wasn’t she ever enough?

Diviners, Libba Bray

She is my constant

To my dear crush

I miss all the adrenaline rush

Each moment spent beside you was special

For you I was ready to wrestle

You were a friend first

And thankfully not a boy who always used to walk by

I always loved how you used to sit beside me when my friend was not around

I remember the look you gave to those gossipers on the ground

I felt special when you told me those secrets

I felt safe when you waited for me on the way

There was a time when I used to think about you all day

From hiding my feelings

To behaving indifferently I did it all

I was crazy over you for sure

Nothing between us was official

But you were a secret I was ready to tell none

Choosing the same subjects

And making study plans was somehow the future I was looking for

I liked you even after your ego

I was so happy when you used to say sorry and was ready to let things go

But I also remember that truth and dare game

I remember how you took my name

I was elated for sure

But something at that time needed a cure

I remember her crying

And that was the time I was trying

To not think

Because thinking meant choosing something

She was my best friend

And she had a lot unsaid

I had guessed before

But I was so over you that I decided to keep a close door

I liked you

And she liked you too was the case somehow

But now I had a choice to make anyhow

It was time to wake

And let the dream break

So I thought for long

It was not easy and I was definitely not strong

She had seen me cry more times

Than you had seen me smile

You were special

But what we had didn't promise me miles

The idea of losing her was unimaginable

Reading my mind was a skill in which you weren't able

She had seen my ups and downs

She was the one who never let me hit the ground

She was true to say we were telepaths

We were always the best pair of psychopaths

I had thought about all the possible scenarios

And unfortunately in neither of them

You were there till the end

But she was always around

So I decided to choose her over you

And I definitely miss you

But never have I ever regretted my decision

Although I would love to have an accidental collision

Because I want to tell you

That you were my crush indeed

But she was the friend of my need

I am happy to have her beside me

Even though she doesn't make me feel the same glee

It's been years I know

But she is still my constant tho

I don’t believe you. I won’t ever believe you. I trust you wholeheartedly in everything you say; just not when you say that I am wanted. I’ve heard that too many times before, just to be left behind because I’m just too much. Too loud, too clingy, too excited, too sensitive…too much. Don’t get me wrong, I really want to believe you. But I’ve been let down so many times, I’m just waiting for you to get tired of me as well.

Hope…..full

Could cry the whole day

But that doesn’t take my pain away

So i keep the tears inside

The pain is the groom and i’m the bride

Forever together until death

So thats the hell if you do the math.

But as in every relationship

You try your best, at least a bit

So others think you’re the perfect fit.

No problems and no pain

You’re handling it like your favourite game.

Oh but there is nothing less true

Just a banana that is blue

Or sherlock that has no clue.

But there is a small silverlining

Is it you or the sun shining?

-B.I