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Anyone else feel lost?

I don’t know what is happening in my life anymore and I want to know if there are others that feel the same. But everyday is the same and everyday I yearn more and more for some sort of shift into a fictional world or some feeling...but I’m stuck crying over my comfort characters, feeling absolutely helpless. How do I live in the moment? How do I feel something?

That’s it, I’m going into my villain era.

Vent session to all my engineers and women in or out of the field:

So when did a college degree make someone worthy of being in a group chat???? It’s a expensive piece of paper for: 1. An experience 2. To show skills that were learn. Which by time you finish and get a job most of them you don’t use or out of date.

Why is engineering so unexclusive sometimes especially to poc and women. I just don’t get it, sometimes I hate it here. Why did I I pick this field someone please remind me? I swear sometimes in engineering I’m a a**hole magnet. Someone please save me🧐🥺🙄. I’m not going to let a 50+ wash up old man try to tell me I don’t fit into tech because I’m black, don’t have my degree and I’m a woman. 🖕🏾

She is my constant

To my dear crush

I miss all the adrenaline rush

Each moment spent beside you was special

For you I was ready to wrestle

You were a friend first

And thankfully not a boy who always used to walk by

I always loved how you used to sit beside me when my friend was not around

I remember the look you gave to those gossipers on the ground

I felt special when you told me those secrets

I felt safe when you waited for me on the way

There was a time when I used to think about you all day

From hiding my feelings

To behaving indifferently I did it all

I was crazy over you for sure

Nothing between us was official

But you were a secret I was ready to tell none

Choosing the same subjects

And making study plans was somehow the future I was looking for

I liked you even after your ego

I was so happy when you used to say sorry and was ready to let things go

But I also remember that truth and dare game

I remember how you took my name

I was elated for sure

But something at that time needed a cure

I remember her crying

And that was the time I was trying

To not think

Because thinking meant choosing something

She was my best friend

And she had a lot unsaid

I had guessed before

But I was so over you that I decided to keep a close door

I liked you

And she liked you too was the case somehow

But now I had a choice to make anyhow

It was time to wake

And let the dream break

So I thought for long

It was not easy and I was definitely not strong

She had seen me cry more times

Than you had seen me smile

You were special

But what we had didn't promise me miles

The idea of losing her was unimaginable

Reading my mind was a skill in which you weren't able

She had seen my ups and downs

She was the one who never let me hit the ground

She was true to say we were telepaths

We were always the best pair of psychopaths

I had thought about all the possible scenarios

And unfortunately in neither of them

You were there till the end

But she was always around

So I decided to choose her over you

And I definitely miss you

But never have I ever regretted my decision

Although I would love to have an accidental collision

Because I want to tell you

That you were my crush indeed

But she was the friend of my need

I am happy to have her beside me

Even though she doesn't make me feel the same glee

It's been years I know

But she is still my constant tho

How I feel about this quarantine bullshit