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cringe system culture is having 5 introjects of the same (not a) guy but slightly different each time. it feels like a spot the difference in here. we all hang out in the middle of our headspace void and chat its fun in here

Cringe System Culture Is

I fucking despise when things fake being higher quality than they are. I don't mean like slapping a slightly misspelled brand name onto an identical non-designer product for purely aesthetic reasons I mean like rivets or thread that are actually glued down rather than punched or stitched. Fake pockets on jeans that are actually just an extra seam. Heavy looking chain that's plastic or very soft flimsy metal rather than anything sturdy. I bought boots which looked like they had a stitched sole 8 months ago and lo and behold the glue holding the sole on is revealing itself by falling apart. You PUT a STITCH IN THERE. YOU HAD THE NEEDLE AND THREAD. AND YOU DIDNT ACTUALLY STITCH DOWN THE FUCKING SOLES. Oh it makes me so mad. Cheap cunts taking the aesthetics of durability or practicality while handing you a product that won't last you the year

On the struggles of being a system...

I saw a post which talked about how seeing other systems be happy and stuff felt like a mockery to them, or saying that being a system isn't inherently a bad thing is a mockery. I have some particular feelings about this. I don't like it.

Having a disorder is debilitating, there's a lot of struggle. Some days it's easier and I enjoy talking with my alters and sharing experiences with other systems, other times the repressed emotions and urges suddenly coming to attack me... Not remembering why things feel so wrong or some days I feel more me than before, or don't even feel like the concept of me is real.

Yet, it's not something I hate. Even if i were a singlet, I think I'd still struggle one way or another, it's inevitable in this world we live in. Not being a system wouldn't automatically fix all my problems. I think I'd have different problems that are just as much of a hassle as being a system.

Sure, it would be nice to not struggle with the trauma that caused this. It would be nice to simply not have wounds that are festering but are hidden, and you aren't ready to fix them.

But others enjoying the other stuff that came with the trauma being a mockery? Making the most of what they have, being a mockery? You're simply projecting your insecurities onto those who seem to be in a "better state" than you. It is not a bad thing for people to happy despite it all. They are not mocking you or anyone for that matter.

Or even someone experiencing something you have but without the struggles that come along with it... It isn't a mockery. I'd like to say it demonstrates that it isn't inherently suffering.

Please don't say that the joy of others are mockeries of your pain. I think it hurts everyone, including you.

I'm full of so much joy right now and there's nothing I could post without sounding like woodland pixie dancing on a toadstool. playing a viola or some shit. we're talking whimsidaisical, I know cringe is dead but this could revive it. I'm frighteningly close to talking like a leprechaun. instead I'm just going to be happy without posting about it. I'm doing this for your own safety

We have a separate sort of pocket dimension we call fragspace that's full of loose fragments, and that's generally where headmates form. They're not entirely mindless but they're relatively simple-minded and can generally be reduced to a personality trait or two. They are all managed by two people but it used to be one until we managed to get her to coax some fragments into forming an assistant for her. They're essentially waiting for a "foundation" to build on which is why we have so many introjects, so they kind of do take suggestions. I think it'd be more accurate to say it's an invitation? If I scrolled through a bunch of "build a sysmate" type posts we would probably get a ton of them.

Our original fragment manager is slowly going insane managing what are functionally a bunch of rowdy kids (from the little I've seen and heard at least) and we really need to strongarm her into taking another break... the last person to take over for her barely lasted a few hours.

Since they have basic personalities and tend to think out loud there's somewhat of a way to tell what kind of person they'll be. I remember her saying she stopped some from forming JD (Heathers) because their reasoning was wanting destruction and violence which isn't great.

Kind of wild to think most of us formed like that, since nobody remembers fragspace. Well, no one I've met anyway.

Questions for systems: What's something unique about your system?

being a system is the silliest because i will be literally having a breakdown sobbing on the floor but the right thing triggers me and suddenly fluttershy is cleaning my kitchen

Having media literacy is more important than being good at math prove me wrong

YEAHHH SYSTEMPILLED ORIGINMAXXER FLAG LET'S GOOOOO

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I’m done w diagnoses there’s nothing wrong w me. I’m just a bit peculiar and eccentric

Finally looked into what radqueers are because I've been seeing the term everywhere and by gods I need to bleach my brain what the actual fuck