Latest Posts by cvttcat - Page 2
Hypersexual culture is desperately needing a lucid and vivid wet dream because you know you won't ever feel comfortable enough to have sex in real life, no matter if you're bottoming or not, and masturbating barely feels good anymore
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hypersexual culture is getting so frustrated with your usual smut/porn/kinks not getting you off anymore so you have to keep finding more and more intense shit until suddenly you're jacking off to things you're actually repulsed by and feeling Doubly filthy and horrible afterwards
me too anon me too
you knkw your mental health is bad when you gotta pull out the bird app
"youre suicidal ??" fork found in socket
it bothers me so much when "mental health advocates" are only supportive of the "acceptable" symptoms and disorders...
people who "advocate" for depression but call others disgusting for having trouble showering, or people who "advocate" for trauma survivors but say you shouldnt express your trauma in art or talk about it because its "triggering"...
people who "advocate" for BPD but demonize NPD and ASPD as if they arent in the same cluster...
people "support mental health" until it isnt relatable. people "support mental health" until it cant be romanticized. people "support mental health" until symptoms disrupt life. people "support mental health" until symptoms are noticeable and not easily hidden.
you are not an advocate if you do not advocate for us all. you cannot be a mental health advocate while also talking badly about people with personality disorders, including ASPD and NPD. you cannot be a mental health advocate if you make fun of autistic people who are visibly autistic. you cannot be a mental health advocate if you call the police on someone with psychosis for talking to themselves in public.
if your entire "advocacy" revolves around demonizing more "severe" symptoms or disorders, and romanticizing the "good" and "relatable" symptoms or disorders, you are not an ally. you are feeding into stereotypes.
i have ASPD and NPD. the amount of hate i see in "advocate" spaces is honestly shocking. if your entire advocacy revolves around "helping depressed autistics escape evil narcissists!!!!", you are not an advocate, you are ableist.
people with stigmatized disorders or symptoms should not have to water down the way they experience life and describe their personal symptoms and experiences just to avoid being called bad people. by demonizing some disorders while romanticizing others under the guise of "advocacy", you are spreading misinformation and reinforcing stereotypes. you are worsening the stigma for people who already struggle. you are harming everyone with struggles, because a lot of society does not see a difference of "good" vs "bad" mental illness. to ableist neurotypicals, we are all bad.
you hurt the entire community by excluding your own.
you advocate for all of us, or you help none of us.
being on shedblr and being sad when ur moot is genuinely suicide posting is so dumb like what did i expect
I know my life will end in suicide. I'm sure of it.
i hate that i cant fucking enjoy anything because its either im worried its NOT something i actually like and that i basically copied it% mimiced someone else or that its too generalized of a thing to like or i dont do it good enough so i should shoot muself or overd0se right now because im bad at it
heres an example
i like music. i like vocaloid alot and kikuos music
problem. i cant tell if its me that i like anymore or i copied it cuz half of my fucking interests and personality or all of it is fake. secondly its too genetalizrf and everyone i know likes it meaning im normal and not good enough and should kill myself now. thirdly i literally dont know the lyrics are meaning therefore im a faker and should kll myself now.
im sorryims rory ismroryrsoryrrosrysgdlfjshlim so sorry please im sorry pelase
please palese aplespespelapelspelapelspelpslspgjdl
everything is my fault ahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahhahahahhahaha pelases fei ene dsjfdklsdjfgf please pelase pale sepalesepalesplapelpleasepleasepleapselapeseplet me die please paels esdfsss im so so so so so sorry please im sorry pleas pelase plaesplease pleasepleaelskfd;gjfklh
when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again
Growing up Asian means domestic abuse was so normalized until whenever you hang with other Asians the question that pops up isn’t “Were you abused?” it’s “How did your parents abuse you?” Because we all already know the answer to the first one.
people only like mental health issues when they’re “pretty” They accept you till you have rotting teeth because you physically can’t brush your teeth, they accept you till you have permanent and visible SH scars you don’t hide, they accept you until you don’t/can’t get better, they accept you till your over weight or underweight, they accept you till you fail all you classes or lose your job, they accept you till your hyper sexual or a paraphile, they accept you till you have addictions so bad your life is consumed. Mental health isn’t always “pretty” and that’s okay, you deserve support
me: it's gonna be the day
me: proceeds to not kill myself
hopefully things will go well and today will be my last day alive 🤞
bleh im a horrible person
every time i decide a day will be my last day it always goes really shittily and i end up being discovered and talked out of it like bro i just wanna die 😭
sui culture is not fully knowing whether you want everyone or absolutely no one to care about your death.
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on new years i relapsed and cut like hundreds of times all over my body and then the next day i woke up, overdosed on my meds, immediately left the house, got energy drinks, almost threw up, and then just wandered around while looping a trigger song and with a blade in my pocket so uh. yeah i would say i don't really like new years
thinking about when i told my friend id stay clean for 3 days becuz i knew he was super stressed out about me cutting only for me to cut after one day clean
I have a distinct memory of laying in my bed as a kid and wishing with all my heart that I would get hurt. That I would get into a bad car crash or I'd disappear. So my parents would cry and realize they didn't cherish me enough.
I find it sad that younger me thought she had to get hurt to feel loved.
yearly reminder that scars get sun burnt a lot easier then skin. remember to keep your scars covered or to use sunscreen (minimum spf of 30) when outside. dont put sunscreen on open wounds tho, only scars!!
everything is ragebait when you have anger issues and poor impulse control
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*sigh* I want attention... I *need* attention... *sad rat noises*
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is it normal to become aggressively suicidal and beat the fuck out of an inanimate object when ur fp gets upset at you for a valid reason or is this simpsons of another mental ill ess
Not now I'm busy doing my daily scar check
im going to kill my parents