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Sleepless nights

I do, I do. You never cease to amaze me. When I'm with you, I can't see anyone else. Damn boy, you make my heart flutter.

May 31, 2014

I'm sitting here next to you in bed and you're sleeping. You're so adorable when you're asleep. You look so peaceful and happy. I wish you'd look that way all the time. I hate seeing you so upset now. I wish I could help you, I really do. But it seems like I can't. You mean everything to me, I really hope you know that. Even though you can't read this, maybe one day you can. And you'll see how I feel.

May 30, 2014

I made myself really upset today. I watched the video you recorded of me after I got my wisdom teeth taken out. We were still together at the time and you called me baby in the video. God, how I miss you calling me baby and telling me that you love me in that cute little way you used to… I’m so happy that I still come over on the weekends, that makes me super happy but I just wish we were back together. I get super jealous when you talk to other women because I want you to still be all mine. We were so perfect, well as perfect as we could be together. We never fought, nothing. It was nothing but pure bliss. I still get that same blissful feeling when I’m with you. I may not show you, and I think I should. But I do. I’m doing the best I can to slim down and show you I’m trying. I’m glad you’re seeing that too. Even though we aren’t together anymore, I still fall for you more and more each time I'm with you

you have no idea

you have no idea how happy I am that you still have me come over every weekend. Or maybe you do, Idk. But, that's one of the things I adored about our relationship. And I'm happy that you loved it too. I love knowing that you love spending time with me. It makes me feel really special. I just wish I was your girlfriend again. I miss you calling me baby, and I miss you telling me that you loved me in that cute little voice you used to do it in. I love coming over here on the weekends and spending time with you like we used to do. It makes me feel like we're still together even though we aren't anymore. At least I can dream, right? I love that when I come over, we still sleep in the same bed and cuddle like we used to. I've never been happier then I am right now being with you. Even if we're not together. You said you wouldn't be surprised if you asked me back out, and I'll be waiting for that day. Cause I know, one day you're gonna realize what you had when you were with me and want it all back. No matter how long it takes, I'll be here.

You would think that I would feel better since we've been broken up for over a month now, but in reality I've gotten worse. Each day that goes by stabs me with the pain of everything that happened. I wish I could change your mind and make you happy again. I miss you more and each day. I'm so happy that we still talk, but you say there's no chance of us getting back together but deep down inside I feel like that is a lie. I feel like there still is a chance. Please God, why me? Why did this have to happen? Why can't you help me fix everything? I wish I had a time machine, or that God would give me a miracle and everything would go back to how it was when we were both happy with each other. I'm still praying that time will bring us back together and you'll see that we were meant to be together. I've changed so much, and I hope you see that.

This is exactly how I feel right now.

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you ever know what it's like to lose the person you love? that pain that you feel because you feel as though it's all your fault? I lost the man I love because I feel like I fucked up so bad. I feel like I did everything wrong. As much as he tells me it's not all my fault. I'm always gonna feel that way. He tells me that he's giving me another chance to show him I'm changing but he's out on a date with someone else. I'm so confused /: And the way he talks to me.... Talking to me like I'm a stranger when he's drunk. Why? He says he hates to see me hurt, but yet he's gonna talk to me that way.. What did I do to deserve this? Why me? Why us? We had everything. Yes, we had problems but what couple doesn't? Okay, so I haven't shown him my ambition. Alright, I get that. But if you really loved me like you say you do, you would've tried to push me harder then you did. I love him with my entire being. I believe he is the piece I've been missing all of these years and I don't wanna give that up. I've got hope that once I show him how serious I really am, he'll change his mind and want this back. It hurts so much. The sound of his voice soothes me and makes me think things are okay but then reality kicks in and all I wanna do is die... I wanna crawl under a rock and die. I can't deal with this pain and I'm afraid I'm gonna die of a broken heart because of this. I can't eat, I can't sleep. All I can do is toss and turn and panic. I don't wanna hurt anymore. I want us back. I want everything we had back. He is my best friend and my whole world. Since he left, my world has crashed down around me and I feel so alone. I'm glad he's still in my life, but I don't like not having him in my life as my boyfriend. I thought we had a future together? We talked about it all the time. All I can do now, is show him that I'm changing and hope for the best. He says he's moving on with his life because he doesn't believe that I'm changing. I can't wait to show him how serious I am. I don't wanna move on. He means everything to me. He will always be my number 1. And he'll always have my heart. And I'm glad to know that I will always have a huge part of his heart. All I can do is hope....

The most amazing picture my camera has taken of the moon, I absolutely adore my new camera (:

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finally;

I've finally found that one guy that every women is always talking about finding. the one who treats me like a princess and who will hold me when I cry. He takes care of me when I don't feel good. He listens to me rant on about worthless nonsense and complain about stupid things. He holds my hand when he's driving. He knows that my depression gets to me and he holds me and tells me that everything is going to be okay. He's perfect in every way, and  I honestly couldn't picture my life without him. I'm so happy to have him in my life. I love him to death and i hope i never lose him <3