I Realized Something. The Reason I Don’t Like Going Out While I’m Sick Is Cause Normally I Have To

Me scrolling through posts. Seeing shows I like. Seeing characters that deserve better. They die at the- they fucking die at the end?! What-what do you mean? I don’t get my happy ending for my lil morally ambiguous people? What do you mean!!!

Random thoughts on 4 minutes the series. Spoilers for episode 6.

Well this Great is kinda adorable in his unhinged way. Ah, he’s trying so hard. Now Great had no idea what would happen if he tried to save Nan and Tyme. Like he had no reason to think these random guys with guns would stop for him. Dude’s scared, always has been. This show is so gonna break me by the end of it. Tonkla though, good on him. Doing exactly what he had planned. He got what he wanted but now what? What’s he gonna do now? Dome is still gone and now so are the perpetrators. So now that he’s got nothing left and no goal to go towards, what will he do? Also did Great’s mom do something to Korn’s mom? She mentioned how if she didn’t do what she did they would have had to live in hiding as mistress and son. What did she do? So many questions. I wonder how this is going to go. 2 episodes left.

Ahhh I freaking love Zombie Detective. It’s sooooo good. It’s a Korean comedy drama. There is a romance but I view them more as besties. (That’s just me though.) I am all in for the friendship vibes from this show. I love it. The characters are all so lively. It makes you laugh and cry but mainly laugh. It’s just so fun.

Ahhhhhhhhhh

My rambles about Hidden moon the series. Spoilers for episodes 1-9.

Like I already thought Khen was dead and that they could have been stuck in limbo but I didn’t think that would happen. T^T whhyyyyyyy. My heart. Not a shred of happiness for my lovelies. These shows are breaking meeeee. I wanted more friendship moments between the main group but all I got was pain and suffering and then… and then that just happens. I hope they’re happy wherever they ended up. I don’t expect this show to have a happy ending but I hope it’s at least a bittersweet one. Let them find peace, please.

I’m gonna go cry in a corner. Maybe I’ll rewatch Rak Diao for healing or finish Your Tooth My Love (just started and it has the fluff I need right now).

That’s it imma start collecting these. Every time something uses an unfathomable amount of candles all I can think about is everything going up in flames.

I want to learn. But I want to be wrong first. I want to try, but first I want to fail. That way when I succeed, when I realize what is accurate, it will stick. It will hurt but I’ll know how to heal after. And I’ll have a good story to tell later.

As there’s a lot of current events going on, I just want to say, you did really well. Great job sticking things out. You’re strong and amazing and I’m happy to see you’ve made it so far. Sure there’s a lot of shit going on but you’ve pulled through. So no matter what happens, don’t blame yourself okay? We did our best. And if you need a break take one. Here, I’ll save you a seat. You can come take a break next to me if you want or with the many others who care about you. Don’t know where to take a rest? Anywhere is fine as long as you feel safe. So find your safe place and cuddle up. We’ll get through this together.

Have a safe and cozy day/night everyone. Stay strong, cry, relax, breathe, we’ll be here.

Oh, sorry, found myself doomscrolling on your page. Pay no mind to the flood of likes. I am merely enjoying your humour and presence in this online world.

Sometimes I’ll get feedback on a piece of work but the way it’s said feels like a diss. So eventually I take it as a challenge. Either a by heeding the advice or challenging it completely. Too childish? Too simple? Does that make it wrong? How does that affect the piece? Does it invalidate the piece? Can it add to the message? Essentially fuck you professor I’ll find a way to make it work and simultaneously piss you off.

I happen to like my professors it’s just sometimes I wonder why something is deemed wrong and want to find a workaround. I know they don’t mean it to be rude but anger is a motivation and I will find a way to make this work. Too simple? I’ll remake the piece but does simplicity make the original work bad? Or is it not realistic enough for this specific assignment? Just somethings I think about.

You know whenever someone faints in a movie and wake up they automatically try to get up? And the other characters try to stop them. I always found that odd like “why would they get up, they’re injured”. Now I understand, it can be very confusing. Especially when you wake up with a bunch of people staring at you and for some reason you’re on the ground. That’s to say I get it now. (I get adverse reactions to shots, started happening a few years ago. Started fainting. And let’s just say it gets very confusing when you were just standing up and then wake up on the ground. I mean I don’t really feel injured when it happens. So it’s like of course imma get up I’m on the ground. Anyway apparently it’s what happens when your flight or fight response kicks in and the adrenaline has nowhere to go plus lack of blood flow. Speaking of which if you wiggle your feet (at the ankles, like up and down) it can help with blood flow and I have remained conscious since. Sometimes I can tell when I’m about to faint and can warn people. Like the edges of my vision will start filling with like black static and then start going towards the center. Once it completely takes over my vision I am out, but if I notice it happening I’ve been able to reach out and grab my friends arm before passing out so I’ve been caught more than once. But sometimes I forget I have this reaction, though now most people who work where I’ve gotten a shot are aware of this since I, well, forgot or you know, found out while there. )