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I may have just binge watched this show and I freaking love it. It is incredibly difficult for me to find gifs of it unfortunately.

Got Jirayu as Race in BAD GUYS (2022)

When my favorite character is just that one guy in the corner who only has like two scenes and can be spotted in the background every now and again.

Spoilers for Alice in Borderland season 2 finale. My rambles.

Are you kidding me!!!!! They don’t freaking remember each other!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

You know what more of them lived than I was anticipating and they did meet back up, and they are absolutely adorable together so I can accept this, but also pls fucking remember, please.

Are you fucking kidding a joker? Really? Fuck off!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Ah I loved it. I cried so much.

You know whenever someone faints in a movie and wake up they automatically try to get up? And the other characters try to stop them. I always found that odd like “why would they get up, they’re injured”. Now I understand, it can be very confusing. Especially when you wake up with a bunch of people staring at you and for some reason you’re on the ground. That’s to say I get it now. (I get adverse reactions to shots, started happening a few years ago. Started fainting. And let’s just say it gets very confusing when you were just standing up and then wake up on the ground. I mean I don’t really feel injured when it happens. So it’s like of course imma get up I’m on the ground. Anyway apparently it’s what happens when your flight or fight response kicks in and the adrenaline has nowhere to go plus lack of blood flow. Speaking of which if you wiggle your feet (at the ankles, like up and down) it can help with blood flow and I have remained conscious since. Sometimes I can tell when I’m about to faint and can warn people. Like the edges of my vision will start filling with like black static and then start going towards the center. Once it completely takes over my vision I am out, but if I notice it happening I’ve been able to reach out and grab my friends arm before passing out so I’ve been caught more than once. But sometimes I forget I have this reaction, though now most people who work where I’ve gotten a shot are aware of this since I, well, forgot or you know, found out while there. )

Ahhh I freaking love Zombie Detective. It’s sooooo good. It’s a Korean comedy drama. There is a romance but I view them more as besties. (That’s just me though.) I am all in for the friendship vibes from this show. I love it. The characters are all so lively. It makes you laugh and cry but mainly laugh. It’s just so fun.

Sometimes I’ll get feedback on a piece of work but the way it’s said feels like a diss. So eventually I take it as a challenge. Either a by heeding the advice or challenging it completely. Too childish? Too simple? Does that make it wrong? How does that affect the piece? Does it invalidate the piece? Can it add to the message? Essentially fuck you professor I’ll find a way to make it work and simultaneously piss you off.

I happen to like my professors it’s just sometimes I wonder why something is deemed wrong and want to find a workaround. I know they don’t mean it to be rude but anger is a motivation and I will find a way to make this work. Too simple? I’ll remake the piece but does simplicity make the original work bad? Or is it not realistic enough for this specific assignment? Just somethings I think about.

Spill the tea sis.

My rambles about My Golden Blood episode 1.

Im sorry but you can’t get me to believe that he never so much as scraped his knee as a kid or got a paper cut. Dude. Ain’t no way.

I don’t think the way they went about trying to keep him safe would work. Especially not on a kid.

Oh ok then. I guess if there are healing abilities then that could help but you still can’t tell me he never got a paper cut. Paper can be so evil.

Ah yes, the door wide open is magically closed when Nakan comes upstairs.

I fucking love it man. So so much. If it seems like I’m criticizing, I’m not. I just highly enjoy teasing people and I just think it’s fun to think about stuff. Especially world building, but like very brief world building I do not go that deeply just whatever brings me joy in the moment.

Aaaaaaaahhh I can’t wait into the next episode. Love vampires.

But also, what show did I watch where one of the main characters had the same medical condition that Tong was told he had? Ah that’s it. I remember now. Legends of Tomorrow. That’s how I know it.

That’s it imma start collecting these. Every time something uses an unfathomable amount of candles all I can think about is everything going up in flames.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUGGHH

okay I’m good now. Had a lot of work to do (finals and I may have fallen a bit behind). All good now. Just needed to scream in anguish for a moment

Ahhhhh. My rambles about episode 5 of Manner of Death. I wrote as a watched so it’s in the moment thoughts for the most part. Also spoilers.

This is a lot more screams of anguish than happiness btw. So my rambles are more cries.

Oh my goodness they’re all assholes. Ah first meet hey friends how you been he’s helped you on a bunch of cases supposedly and then this one shows up and apparently everyone’s like friends what nope don’t care about you in the slightest (or are going a very bullshit route about protection but come on). Also if the wounds are similar to the previous murder, why the fuck wouldn’t you look into that. Aaaaaaahhhhh, what the fuck man. They’re all such assholes. Ah yes this is how you protect someone, threaten them in compliance. And never explain jackshit. Cause that always works out. (that sentenced is supposed to be read sarcastically btw)

You know, keeping good relations is kinda important for cooperation. Like you don’t need to like each other to work together, but also you kinda do need to do your job too. Investigations take time, but dismissing evidence due to bias and also just plainly ignoring evidence, like come on man.

Can you tell I’m mainly rooting for Bun and his doctor besties? Plus that one school kid. Like I know there’s more going on but also fuck them. For the moment.

Noooo! Don’t die mr journalist!!! I don’t like you but I also don’t hate you! You should really verify your information with more sources and I just really don’t like you but also, you know shit! Live please! Being an asshole does not make you evil, just an ass. You must live man! Oh okay you’re not dying just tracking someone…. Bitch you better not get killed.

Oh you fucking douchebag you shot him!!!!! ……..

Hey doc, I think you should tell your doctor besties what all has been going on with you. At least then they can support you more. And since everyone is focused on you they wont really go for the others yet. Plus I think the others might be just slightly better at keeping things hidden. They’ve been helping you so far.

Oh he ate the chip, fucking genius of course he did.

Sorn? Sorn and That, is that their names? I hope they’re a crime fighting duo, or well more like a protect each other one.

Episode 6

Doctor besties!! I love you guys!

Hold up why are they using that tape? It looks like the type I’ve had to use for projects and I loathe it. I’ve had to make sculptures out of that shit. The tape actually isn‘t that bad, I just don’t have a good relationship with it.

Aaaauuuuuuuugh. I don’t trust it. I don’t trust anything. Beyond Evil, I miss you. You made me doubt literally everything but damn why do I gotta go through it again.

Ah inspector M, the better one (in my opinion). He’s just been more cordial and respectful so far, plus I find him friendly and amusing.

Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh-I have work I need to do T^T. Do I procrastinate or do it? Hmmmm, imma do my work. I shall continue this show later.

So I started watching manner of death. I’m on episode 3 (about halfway through) and like, damn. Spoilers included so the topics in the show will be discussed.

Just, what the fuck. Like they be all like it’s solved, all the evidence points to her committing suicide. To the doctor who was, you know, threatened attacked intimidated. And they what? Just expect him to stop and accept that? Excuse me? After he was literally threatened? Like, they must realize how bizarre that sounds. You know if they only trashed the evidence and didn’t interact with the doctor at all, while he wouldn’t give up, he also wouldn’t have even more reason to investigate and know for sure that there’s more to the case. Cause come on. It’s one thing to have physical evidence and context clues it’s another to be literally told “hey, stop looking into this or we’ll kill you”. And then assaulted. Realistically while that would be terrifying one would not feel safe after that and would be clued in on that whatever happened to her will probably happen to him too. Just, aaaaauuuuuuugggghhhh. Okay okay. Continuing the episode now.

Anyone else who uses procreate, does color drop ever just not work for y’all? Like you do it but for some reason the spot you want to fill is apparently a void from the beyond that no matter what you do cannot be filled by means of the color drop and only manually filling it in is powerful enough to overcome it?

What’s your favorite color?

Don’t have one? Don’t know?

What’s your preferred colors? Color preference?

More open. Works better. More options of colors. Nice.

Don’t have an opinion on the topic? Don’t worry. You don’t need to be super opinionated about everything. People seem to think you always have to be apart of one side and against a different side even if they’re the same thing. I like blue. I like red. If you ask me I’ll say pink. Cause I like pink too. And blue and red are equal to me so I can never decide between them. Pinks a comfort color to me. Though there can be too much of it (looking at you designer Barbie, why would you make the entire building pink? Even I cannot handle that much (if that’s your vibe though good for you))

Ah I just wanted to ramble. People can get so caught up in things that they forget they can enjoy other things too. You don’t need to have an opinion on everything and you don’t need a reason to like something.

I’ll leave it at that. Ah got my thoughts out. Have a good day!

Ah I can’t find the post anymore so guess I’ll make my own. To anyone getting the cursed tubi ad, did you know you can get rid of it? If you filter out the tubi hashtag it goes away (so far this has worked for me, I have not done any other testing so idk if it’ll definitely work for you but I think it should). Hope this helps.

I feel like I’m vicariously living through what’s happening in Thamepo through the posts of others. I’m receiving all of the perceived emotions and have yet to arrive there in the show (I watched the first couple episodes and then waited cause I didn’t want to wait after each episode. Wanna watch it all together cause my emotions could not handle it).

And now I’m just waiting for the next post talking about what’s happening in the show, cause like what man?! What just happened! Excuse me they did what now?

Also not me specifically waiting to watch the show and then not temporarily blocking the tag. Why must I go through all these emotions with y’all!!! Ahhhh how are you guys able to handle it? I’m gonna go hide in my comfort media.

And so yes I think I’ll continue to wait for a bit.

My rambles about Ossan’s Love Thai version.

Honestly I’m loving it. I can handle the comedy and it’s not too hard for me to watch. (Note: I get really bad secondhand embarrassment. I used to have to physically leave the room when watching things cause of how painful it is for me. I’m able to handle more now but still kinda curl into a ball and plug my ears during certain scenes. It hasn’t happened yet for me in this show so I am so happy I can fully handle it. I still enjoy shows I get secondhand embarrassment, such as Bad & Crazy. Amazing but I digress.) Anyway, I absolutely love the comedy and characters. It’s just so fun. I’ve tried to watch the Japanese version but haven’t been able to handle it on my own with the secondhand embarrassment so I’m glad to still be able to experience the story. I’m sure they’re both great. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh it’s just my little pick me up for the week. Okay I’m done rambling. Tiramasee you soon! (<- this is a joke in reference to a musical improv show I saw where this was sang at the end. Let’s just say it was a beautiful in the moment piece).

Shhh

I’m busy doomscrolling.

Random question. People who have gone to concerts, what are they like?

Just finished Beyond Evil! And now I shall ramble about this show. Warning spoilers ahead, kinda. I try to stay vague ish. Also if I misspelled their names my apologies, I’m trying.

Ah Hyeuk! Fucking love you. He’s such an interesting character. His freaking personality was just so different and refreshing to me. I just really liked his scenes. Plus I’d love to see what shenanigans he and Ju-won would get into together (if they treated each other like siblings. Like, I love to imagine the scenarios cause like Hyeuk was there for a lot of shit. Also he can be such an ass and I love him for it.)

All the characters are just so freaking cool! I got attached real quick, after well, doubting literally everything. And the music! The fucking music whenever anything happened was just so wounding. And the ending song felt haunting to me after all the events. It’s so fucking beautiful though. Okay okay. I apologize for how much I’ve cursed but also I just really wanted to ramble cause man. What a great show. Now, would I be able to handle Strangers from Hell? I don’t think so. But I’m kinda interested but also… probably not the best idea for me to watch it. Hmm… maybe I’ll just check out the fanfiction and gifs people have of it to see. Ah but I need at least a smidge of happiness in the shows I watch. So I’ll look into it later. Anyway, back to Beyond Evil.

It’s just such a good fucking show man! To me at least. I loved it. Also highly recommend Move to Heaven and The Good Bad Mother. Let’s just say I’m a sucker for found family and apparently highly enjoy suffering through shows that are emotional rollercoasters.

Okay okay. That’s all for now. Ah I really wanna draw these characters now. Welp have a wonderful day! I shall be enjoying the emotions from this show.

TAE MYUNGHA x A GROWING LOVE FOR LIFE

i finally realized that all the answers i had hoped for were in day to day life that’s too mundane to be “fate,” and yet too beautiful to be “chance.” happiness must be hidden somewhere in each of our days.

love for love’s sake (2024), dir. kim gyun-ah / fatima aamer bilal, from so this is all i will ever be? / mahmoud darwish, if i were another / rainer maria rilke, “the prodigal son.” the selected poetry of rainer maria rilke / sarah waters, from the little stranger / virginia woolf, from a letter to edward sackaville-west / anon on gentleearth / kate rokowski, “a good day” / mary oliver / ocean vuong, “the last dinosaur” from time is a mother / richard siken on twitter / james baldwin, from “they can’t turn back” / heather havrilesky, ask polly / llya kaminsky, from “dancing in odessa”/ fariha roisin, how to cure a ghost / mary oliver, from “work, sometimes”, new and selected poems, volume 2 / maggie millner, couplets: a love story

💯🙏💛🟨👍

Bro I thought I just lost an entire draft of a drama list and was about to just lay down in despair. I should probably keep a copy of them elsewhere instead of just writing them on here. That would most certainly be safer. But I don’t feel like it right now. Soooooo maybe later. :3

T^T

I looked up for a moment and it’s all blurryyyyy. I know my eyes consistently get worse but come on. Please can you wait a little longer? Needing a new prescription yearly (though to be fair even though I should renew them yearly I will hold out as long as I have to). Oh never mind I’m fine. Figured. Just needed to give my eyes a moment to adjust. I mean, i still do need a new prescription. But eh. It's all good. Though I do need to figure out how to clean them better. The metal is all oxidized by now. Or, you know, many parts of it. Does anyone know how to clean the nose part? When it's the metal with the doohickeys/whatever it's called kind?

Okay so I don’t have anything nearly as in depth to say but I do have some thoughts. This is more in general fandomness not just queer related media. So some context: This isn’t my art account but I do make fanart and societal views of the media greatly affect what I may end up posting. I recently became a fan of a kpop band and drew one of the band members. I was scared to post it cause of so many what-ifs and the fact that it didn’t get it to look quite right. But that’s beside the point. Anyway, when I went to talk to friends about if I should post it one of them pointed out some things I had never thought about. So kpop, anime, and other media doesn’t have a good reputation where I’m from though anime has become more accepted. My friend said “So you know how a group of women isn’t evil. But then when a group of women like something it’s given a bad reputation?” Something along those lines but they said it better than I could put into words. And I feel like this has to do with the “only straight women like this media”. It’s mysogenistic. And also just incorrect in the grand scheme of things. So many people like a variety of things but when certain groups of people like something people will attack it just using the basis “well these people like it so it must not be good”. Which, is just so odd. Why would a group of people liking something somehow affect the quality of media? Like I’m sure it would have some influence but not in the way that is used in such an argument. I want to go on more but honestly can’t figure out how to go on so pls add to this. (Sorry if this doesn’t make much sense, I’m not quite sure how to properly express my thoughts)

Now onto a different topic. So I’m a fan of very niche things and highly enjoy my corny cheesey little shows. Some of which I would recommend to my friends until they called one of my shows cringe. Which, okay if it isn’t your thing I completely understand. But it’s a show I’ve expressed that I loved and even recommended. Now if you want to call my show anything call it corny, cheesey, goofy, cause it is. It’s overly dramatic yeah but that’s its vibe. Cringe is so overused and just saying stuff like this made me more wary about what shows I offer people and avoid shows that maybe they would actually like. If you’re going to criticize something, don’t just use negative words. Call it what it is. If it’s cheesey or over dramatic maybe it won’t have that gritty plot line you’re looking for but it’s not supposed to have that. It’s supposed to be a lil goofy, it’s supposed to be fun. Yeah it’s ‘unrealistic’ but the characters have super powers so it was never meant to be. Hell even if they didn’t have powers sitcoms exist for a reason. (Rak Diao, my love).

Another lil tidbit I wanted to add on was just basic understanding of media. I’ve talked about this before so I’m just gonna copy and paste it but edit it to make sense in this context:

So I find I don’t understand everything. By this I mean I can take one understanding of a piece, look at the piece again and just be like damn how on earth was I so wrong before? It’s why I like giving shows a second chance. Cause I might of completely misunderstood what’s happening or maybe I never knew in the first place. It’s just the meaning I took at that time and now I’ll learn something else from it. Like something I might misremember or have a bad impression of I’ll go back and recheck and be like, yeah no I was so wrong. This is great! And vice versa, I’ll be like man this is so good, rewatch and notice things that are a bit iffy. And just go hmmmmm. Just enjoy what you enjoy and don’t be afraid to try things again or let things go. Also, a lot of things fly over my head in shows cause I’m not aware or conscious of everything and I don’t know all the experiences or relevant ties things may have so it’s always good to double check or get a second pair of eyes. (See I read an entire book thinking the main character was a boy. It wasn’t until literal years later I found out the main character was a girl. Did this change much of anything? Not really. But it’s an example and I still thought the fairy and main character were going to end up dating. Alas they did not.)

I hope some of this made sense. T^T

Putting my thoughts out here is terrifying, cause of again all those what-ifs. Anyway, I don’t know how to uh end my lil spiel so yeah. (￣▽￣;)

a question for QL fandom at large: when did we start only wanting media that is perfectly suited to our standards?

there has never been a perfect show, and there never will be a perfect show, because everybody likes different things and QL is run on shoestring budgets. i thought this was something we made our peace with as viewers of the genre!

so i'm just wondering at what point fandom decided that a show is only worthy of praise/fandom if it has no problems?

at what point did we decide that talking about the problems of a show is more important than talking about what we did enjoy and what kept us watching? i don't know when it happened, but it definitely has. critique is treated more seriously and gets more interaction than people talking about what they like.

it seems like a really exhausting and slightly puritan way to do things, to be constantly finding imperfections and treating them as more important than the good parts. dunno about y'all but i don't want to be unintentionally enacting puritan shit.

i want joy, i want fun, i want the spirit of camaraderie in fandom.

so, why did fandom begin to snub any media that didn't fit very high standards? and how can we steer ourselves away from that impulse?

(i am genuinely curious about why this is happening and how those of us who don't enjoy it can change, so please feel free to jump in, even if you are 'late' or think you only have a very small contribution to make to the discussion.)

Oh, sorry, found myself doomscrolling on your page. Pay no mind to the flood of likes. I am merely enjoying your humour and presence in this online world.

My thoughts on the Me and Who Series Trailer.

Isekai? -slams open door- say no more! I am here. And I am intrigued.

Honestly I think it looks so fun. Fun, silly goofy, and just like a good time. I liked the actors in Monster Next Door ( no I haven’t finished that show yet, shhh, quiet) so I think they’ll be just as good in the new one. But I don’t really follow actors so I’m just there for the story and man does it look fun. Got some isekai, bit of mind reading (makes me wonder if anyone else has powers), magic (I’m assuming the stones are magic, not like an in depth thought of anything. I’m literally just spouted out whatever I feel), ah I can’t wait. Welp that’s all I want to say. Have a marvelous day/night!

Do you ever just, take off your glasses for the effect? I mean I can’t see shit but sometimes you gotta wonder if you’re actually seeing this shit or your glasses are playing tricks on you. I just like the emphasis. I find it fun.

You know how I said I was better? Guess who’s sick again! Wooooooooooo! T^T

Let’s see what to ramble about this time. I’m actually in a good mood for this post so ah I have no idea. Oh I’ve just started watching Jazz for Two. Seems very fun so far. I don’t have any of their names memorized at this point in time so uh I love the blue ish haired ones personality a lot. I too tease the shit out of my friends, lovingly of course. And to the one friend I have who knows about this blog, you know. Anyway I just find him to be fun. I’m looking forward to seeing how every characters friendships progress. Though I am worried about how stressed certain plot points might make me. Though, I kinda only know some clips from this show so I got nothing on where the plots gonna head. Can’t wait to find out.

Oh I also found another show on YouTube (idk if it’s the official version though) called Furious Duos. I don’t think I quite understand what’s happening in it but I am gonna try to watch it later.

Missing: The Other Side. One day I’ll be able to finish you. One day. Once you’re back on a streaming service I hopefully have. Pls, I need to know what happens.

Anywho, ah I’m in a good mood. I’m gonna get back to watching Jazz for Two and maybe even get some food. I had so much work to do today and finally get to rest. Still have a little bit to get done but now’s my resting time so I’ll worry about it later. That and if I set aside an hour I should be alright. Oh, still rambling. Have a wonderful day/night! Take care!

I’m no longer sick! Wooo! Still got a bit of a cough but rarely. Been busy but I’m back to ramble once more. Now I’m enjoying Caged Again far more than I expected. Think it may turn into a comfort show for me. Sun is super relatable, social interactions are hard. I just love the characters. They’re so fun and charismatic.

Wrote this November 29 and forgot to post. Don’t know where exactly I was going with it but oh well. Posting it anyway.