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Okay this is just a neat lil vent post. So the rest is just me rambling about random things.
Okay I’ve warned you and you’re still reading for some reason so uh hi. My brain’s just been a little too loud for me recently. Ah I guess I can talk about my blog lore. The reason I created this was when I was going through an existential crisis and just needed an outlet. And rambling about shows helped. So now when my mind is too loud I tuck into this tiny corner and wrap myself up in happiness. It’s sorta comforting. I’ve never been good at writing in a journal but for some reason just typing like this helps. Puts my mind at ease and lets me rant about my interests. It’s calming.
Been listening to the song alive by rose on loop for the past few days cause I need the stimulation and no other noise was working. On a side note I only found the song a few days ago as well. It’s nice. Kinda reminds me of the Christian music I heard as a kid. Side note: I grew up Christian, now though I don’t really believe but still view it as part of me. Even if I can’t believe old habits and mindsets remain. it's a comfort i miss but not one i find myself regaining. not yet anyway
on another note i get sick when im stressed. or overthinking. or both. stress now makes me physically ill so ive been trying to find ways to stop that from happening. the way it makes me ill is typically me vomiting. so now im trying out meditation. it seems to help a bit but maybe i should do it more to decreass my stress sooner then letting it build up. i guess i just need to get more used to it. calming myself. not tensing as much.
ah im compiling a list of dramas i watch with detective in the name. i love my detective dramas so i find it fun. now, not all of these i have watched yet but they match so: (^w^) hehe~ anyway: zombie detective, vampire detective, ghost detective, insect detective. so many with similar titles and i love them. my roommate is a detective is also in the list but i want to do the most similar titles first and then extend it. ah i love zombie detective so much. and vampire detective has a beautiful team who protect each other to hell and back and i am here for it. man i need to finish that show.
ah im feeling better so i shall get going for now. Have a wonderful day/night!
I realized something. The reason I don’t like going out while I’m sick is cause normally I have to pretend I’m fine. I don’t know since when I started to do that but I think it has to do with school. Healthy or sick one always had to go and I didn’t like to make noise cause it felt like disrupting the class. Now though, just going out and being upfront about the fact that I’m sick but I can’t afford to not be here honestly takes a weight off me. It’s like a yeah I’m sick, it sucks but it is what it is. And then I don’t have to pretend to be healthy. I can just exist in my misery without feeling like I’m being a bother. Or at least not as much. It’s nice.
Content warning - kind of a vent. Just mind stuff. Eh I can’t think of a warning, other than what I’ve already written. Brain fog. Well that and sickness.
Working on a project and hating what it’s current progress and look every second I’m working on it but when I walk away and stop for a while I find I actually kinda like it. But then I go back to working on it and every fiber of my being is screaming at me that I’m somehow making it so so much worse and every touch is a mistake, but then I pause look back and go nice that actually looks good. But then it’s still not done so I gotta work on it more.. and I just get a bit tired with my brain. Like pls, let me work on peace.
Guess who’s sick and feels like shit!
I want you guys to know that your posts make me incredibly happy. Your blogs brighten my day and put a smile on my face. Your existence brings me joy and I’m so happy to be able to interact with a part of you. Thank you for existing. And being so freaking amazing and wonderful. Love you guys.
I feel like some people would like this song right now. Been a while since I’ve listened to it but I stumbled back upon it while looking for a different song. Hang in there everyone.
As there’s a lot of current events going on, I just want to say, you did really well. Great job sticking things out. You’re strong and amazing and I’m happy to see you’ve made it so far. Sure there’s a lot of shit going on but you’ve pulled through. So no matter what happens, don’t blame yourself okay? We did our best. And if you need a break take one. Here, I’ll save you a seat. You can come take a break next to me if you want or with the many others who care about you. Don’t know where to take a rest? Anywhere is fine as long as you feel safe. So find your safe place and cuddle up. We’ll get through this together.
Have a safe and cozy day/night everyone. Stay strong, cry, relax, breathe, we’ll be here.
Well, I was rewatching Pending Train so may as well use pending as my name. But that was taken so added hope to it cause that’s all I could think of and wanted that to be the underlaying feel of how I feel when I go on here so, yeah. :3
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My rambles about Hidden moon the series. Spoilers for episodes 1-9.
Like I already thought Khen was dead and that they could have been stuck in limbo but I didn’t think that would happen. T^T whhyyyyyyy. My heart. Not a shred of happiness for my lovelies. These shows are breaking meeeee. I wanted more friendship moments between the main group but all I got was pain and suffering and then… and then that just happens. I hope they’re happy wherever they ended up. I don’t expect this show to have a happy ending but I hope it’s at least a bittersweet one. Let them find peace, please.
I’m gonna go cry in a corner. Maybe I’ll rewatch Rak Diao for healing or finish Your Tooth My Love (just started and it has the fluff I need right now).
Trick or treat! This year I went as Hilda from fire emblem. Actually had the costume for a few years now but was making it by hand (something I’ve never done before but figured why not) so uh never really finished some bits and bobs. This time I finished her weapon so went as her anyway. Have a wonderful day/night!
woah that's so cool!! i've never made a costume by hand like that but i imagine it's super rewarding when you're finished. i bet you looked awesome!
anyways hilda's pink hair (i did have to look her up lol) reminded me of bubble gum so take some blow pops!
and i wasn't sure what to gif for your bonus since i don't know if you share the same brainrot as me but i figure you can't really go wrong with cute boys on a cute arcade date so
happy (belated) halloween!! 👻
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For the bl trope ask game: 5, 7, 10? If possible please. This seems really cool to do. Have a wonderful day/night!
I love when I get repeats because I get to consider different shows! My initial answers for these were:
5. Second Chance Romance: His
7. Star-Crossed Lovers: Until We Meet Again and I Feel You Linger In The Air
10. Bodyguard: KinnPorsche
Lemme see what else I've got in the tank...
Second Chance Romance
I will always prefer a second chance romance that is truly about regrets, forgiveness and trying again to one about never having taken the leap in the first place. The End of the World With You (Bokura no Micro na Shuumatsu) is one of the best I've seen. Ritsu is seeking absolution and reconciliation before the world ends, and Masumi is equally determined not to forgive. The journey they go on...well go watch it if you haven't already.
Star-Crossed Lovers
The problem with star-crossed lovers is that BL as romance is indexed toward the happy ending. Tragedy is NOT what the girlies come here for, so the stories have to find a hook, like time travel or past lives, to smuggle the tragedy in while still allowing a happy-ish ending. I'm gonna round out my star-crossed trifecta with He's Coming To Me, because a living man and a ghost falling in love is the very definition of stars being crossed.
Bodyguard
For all its flaws, Never Let Me Go made a solid attempt at the bodyguard romance and I really enjoyed it in parts. Jojo really swung for it with this one and while I don't think it was entirely successful, it was for sure discussable.
Do we submit reasons for the poll characters here? If not then sorry for the long character spiel.
I know there’s hardly any time left for this but I just wanted to send this in to protect one of my comfort characters. Guo Changcheng. For the greenest flag category. So he’s basically just a literal puppy. Thrown to the wolves on his first day of work, he tries hard to connect and help out his coworkers. Clumsy and a bit lost most times, he will do his best to cheer anyone up. Constantly taking notes so that he can be of better help and being the one who always comforts others. He tries his absolute hardest to learn so that he can protect his friends, so much so that it can be detrimental to himself. Has literally pushed through death defying experiences and injuries just to give strangers comfort. (Next part could spoil but only if one knows the show. I don’t think it spoils anything with the way it’s written but just want to write this just in case.) He won’t let you die alone, even if it kills him.
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Trick or Treat :3
You get King from My Engineer!!! He was in the Autistic Swag bracket!!!
Hi. I hope you’re doing well. I hope things get better for you. If you need a hug or encouragement know that I’m cheering for you. And sending as many hugs as I can! You’ve done really well. I’m glad you’ve made it this far and I hope you go even farther. Safe travels my friend. And may your journey go ever so smoothly. And if you ever need a break, don’t be afraid to take one. You can always hop on by. There’s always a comfy spot waiting just for you. So take a seat and relax. You’re amazing. So just rest for a while or go do what you need to do, we’ll be there cheering you on. Have a wonderful day, night, week, year. Best wishes, from all
Are you ever too busy monologuing a story in your head that you realize you didn’t actually pay attention to the scene that just played out in the show? You just kinda go off on a side story or tangent with the characters and then are just like, ah damn what’d I miss?
I find I don’t understand everything. By this I mean I can take one understanding of a piece, look at the piece again and just be like damn how on earth was I so wrong before? It’s why I like giving shows a second chance. Cause I might of completely misunderstood what’s happening or maybe I never knew in the first place. It’s just the meaning I took at that time and now I’ll learn something else from it. Like something I might misremember or have a bad impression of I’ll go back and recheck and be like, yeah no I was so wrong. This is great! And vice versa, I’ll be like man this is so good, rewatch and notice things that are a bit iffy. And just go hmmmmm. Just enjoy what you enjoy and don’t be afraid to try things again or let things go. Also, a lot of things fly over my head in shows cause I’m not aware or conscious of everything and I don’t know all the experiences or relevant ties things may have so it’s always good to double check or get a second pair of eye. Anyway, that’s all my rambles for the moment. Have a marvelous day/night!
See Your Love - Taiwan
My random thoughts. Watched the first two episodes and I have to say, I’m loving it so far. It’s just so fun and the characters are all so interesting. They have a presence and strong personalities. Highly looking forward to the rest of it. The vibes are nice and I am excited.
-peacefully working on a project-
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-giant black bug of unknown species-
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-standing up to put my project together-
-bug leaps into the air making itself known and dives off the right side of the desk-
… I don’t have the mental capacity to handle the maybe fly or some other bug at this point in time.
I… have had an accident prone week. I just don’t get how I keep on managing to injure myself. Content warning, I talk about getting injured, mainly bruises. I have managed to injure myself every day this week. Monday I nicked/stabbed myself with wire cause of a project I was working on (I don’t even know how it happened, the opposite end somehow got me while I was cutting the piece. Like it’s not bad but I can’t use the finger cause it hurts to lift stuff. And it’s on my dominant hand TvT). The other day I banged up my knee on a desk. Whyyyy, I was just standing up. And now I’ve hit the back of my foot on a charger/cord. It’s already bruising. I… it’s just become Wednesday. TvT. What’s gonna happen today 🫠
Going onto [insert random streaming service] to finish watching a show I started… only to find its no longer there. Removed with no warning, and I now I’m left to grasp at straws. TvT
Alas, why. Oh well, time to search for it on other streaming services I hopefully have
Hmmm… more random thoughts about 4 minutes the series. Spoilers for episodes 1-6 as I’m just rambling.
Just… what? So the conversation the woman has with Great in the hospital (the lady he hit), if this is all in his head, where did that come from? Why are we told about her son who has passed from debts? Will Lukwa and Great show up in the white room? There’s conversations that don’t necessarily add up if this is all in his head (like some of it could be from other aspects of Great’s life that we just don’t know about yet, but still. Makes me wonder.). Ahhhhhh both dreading and looking forward to the next episode. Well, that’s it. All my current random thoughts. Have fun!
You know how some fictional characters can detect lies? Do they like, detect the degree of the lie? Cause I know there are a lot of small white lies that merely bend the truth. Would they take the entire thing as a lie or would they have like a percentage on the amount of truth in that statement. For example if one said they were late due to work stuff but in actual it was the mental preparation having to socially interact. I don’t think this is a good example but it’s late and my brain doesn’t have the energy to think of more. But what I mean is just like small mostly truths. Would they have a percentage of the degree in which the person altered the truth or would the character just take the entire statement as false? Well I’ve let the random thoughts out and now… maybe I’ll sleep. Or not. Who knows. Have a wonderful day/night.
Random thoughts on 4 minutes the series. Spoilers for episode 6.
Well this Great is kinda adorable in his unhinged way. Ah, he’s trying so hard. Now Great had no idea what would happen if he tried to save Nan and Tyme. Like he had no reason to think these random guys with guns would stop for him. Dude’s scared, always has been. This show is so gonna break me by the end of it. Tonkla though, good on him. Doing exactly what he had planned. He got what he wanted but now what? What’s he gonna do now? Dome is still gone and now so are the perpetrators. So now that he’s got nothing left and no goal to go towards, what will he do? Also did Great’s mom do something to Korn’s mom? She mentioned how if she didn’t do what she did they would have had to live in hiding as mistress and son. What did she do? So many questions. I wonder how this is going to go. 2 episodes left.
Random thoughts on 4 minutes the series. Spoilers for episode 5.
Just feeling this overwhelming sadness while watching 4 minutes the series. Cause the happiness feels like it’s gonna break so soon.
Ah, is that the happiness shattering? TvT
Random thoughts on 4 minutes the series. Spoilers for episode 4.
If nothing Great did changed anything I'm gonna cry. Like, kinda expected it but also whyyyyyy. Why can't they just be happy. TvT
I don’t expect it to actually end happily, but I can hope. Fanfic writers save me.
Like there has to be something with the different timelines otherwise why would the car even show up in front of tonkla? Why would they show any of the scenes with the other characters without great and tyme? (Like Dome in the hospital, etc.) What is going on? Ahhhhhh