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You know what’s better than romance and sex. Food. Garlic bread and cake coming my way. 

Just a casual aroace doing really random ramblings :)

Hello there fellow people of the internet, I’ve recently discovered that I’m aroace and I dunno why I’m telling you this, but hi. Onto ramblings we go: Whenever someone talks about a romantic relationship I don’t get it, like good for you I guess. I guess I don’t understand, hence the lack of attraction...also it scares me that there are people my age who’ve done it (teens)...like WHAT?! That is probably due to my aceness...although I didn’t think I was ace for a year...until I realized that you can indeed be a disaster aroace. But also I only really understand platonic relationships and I’ve always had some amount of repulsion to kissing/”the deed” scenes...though I it doesn’t bother as much with the kissing scenes, but if someone were to kiss me...like bro...6 feet apart or farther please. Though then there’s some of my aegoness that confuses me and sometimes I do experience sensual and aesthetic attraction, but it’s worse when I get squish...those...those suck, but not in a bad way...but please let me be your friend. I really went from: “Huh I haven’t liked anyone, but I’m touch starved, so I’m just gonna pick someone who’s nice...but I must be pan.” (shoutout to all my panros/pans)....and now I’m like: “Yep...definitely aroace...kinda wish I knew this in middle school...but now isn’t a bad time...NOW TO WORRY ABOUT THE FUTURE!”

#aroace #rambles #aromantic #aego #asexual #asexual as fuck #aromantic as fuck #asexual

I know! Though I do think that some of them might’ve had platonic crushes (”squishes”) rather than romantic crushes, but yeah romance doesn’t compute or make sense. It definitely seems subjective and varying on the individuals boundaries and then to add on top of that there’s also trauma and just one’s overall lived experience, though I do notice that some people will change their boundaries once getting to know someone as it can be a little awkward when getting to know someone in general. So yeah, basically I 100% agree with what you said above, as they don’t seem serious, but maybe they could be, not like I know.

It funny how I was able to accept that I was ace, granted I was in denial about it for some time. Then I realized I was aro and was like…”NONONO…I know I have no desire to date anyone, but NONONONONONONOnonono….I haven’t dated anyone…I don’t know what a crush feels like, let alone attraction!!! I’ve never had any fantasies!!! Wait-…people fantasize ABOUT ONE ANOTHER?!! I wouldn’t date any stranger or my friends!!!” and then I had the most funny thought at a certain point (before I knew the term aromantic) and it was, “Well maybe if I move countries I’ll be able to fall in love!!!!”, and meanwhile when romance/sex would show up in media I’d be like “Where is the plot?! Why did we lose the plot?! People actually want this?! WAIT-?! Do people act like this?!”. I also thought people were just deadass lying when they said they experienced crushes in kindergarten, which they probably weren’t lying. I will say though I do love food. I mean pesto is an absolute god. Chocolate is amazing (though if don’t like chocolate that’s cool too, same with any other food). But bread…oh my god! I love naan, rolls, and most breads.

I’m so fucking aro and ace

I dunno...some more rambles

So I’m aroace...pretty sure I’m repulsed by romance and sex, but like sometimes the romance is just fucking cute and sex scenes are just a bore...like dude....I’m lookin’ for actual plot (also sometimes when they come up I’m like...welp I guess it’s a death day). Anyways, I’m working on being romance and sex positive because I wanna respect other people, even if I don’t necessarily understand it. But also when I read loveless I didn’t necessarily know I was aroace...and I was like “I gotta experience some ATTRACTION!”...so I thought I was aroflux/aceflux and then I saw Jaiden Animations video and it finally clicked...but now I know why I thought many things were stange. HURRAH!!! Also a-spec peeps, have some cake or garlic bread or really just some food...cause food is legit. 

As an asexual I sometimes forget that sex exists and that sexual things exist, and that they are in fact not just in the media. As an aromantic, I forget that people can feel romantic feelings because all I feel is friendship.

Things I shoulda known

I really should’ve known I was non-binary because I didn’t understand the binary at all, like I do, but it just was like a sock that never fit. When I did discover the term it made me a bit sad, but I had this huge wave of relief and was happy that I could finally be myself. All gender bathrooms are the best, no questions asked. Now onto my sexuality...I really shoulda known I was ace..I mean dude, I literally couldn’t say the word “sex” for years. I have a list of alternatives...quite literally. It’s funny cause one of my friends knew before I did. Now onto my romanticism...I never understood romance..but I was fully convinced that I was a pan/panro...I was really wrong. I hadn’t had well, any crushes (faked ‘em to a T). I found out I was demiplatonic and realized I have squishes on occasion (literally my besties...I love them so SO much...I wanna hang and talk philosophy with both of ‘em), and that I might not be as introverted as I thought. Imma get real existential real quick, but I really am grateful that in the little time that I’ve had on this planet, that I will never experience falling in love or sexual attraction because I’ll have a whole ‘nother experience than somebody else. I’ll change in different ways. My experience may not be common, but I’m grateful that I get to have it. 

Just a bit saddened that youtube recommends people who are talking about mean people’s books but they support the trans people and tell the terfs to f*** off but still...living is hard

I can’t wait till I can take my shirt off and finally breathe in my body. Also fuck Abigail Shrier, J. K. Rowling, Ben Shapiro, Matt Walsh, Steven Crowder, and various other flavors of those who are transphobic, homophobic, and overall exclusionary of queer identities. They’re just mad that we as queer people actually have learned to love ourselves so TAKE THAT FUCKERS!!!! ALSO FUCK ELON...AUGH!!! Why can’t we just respect one another, it ain’t that fucking hard. As easy as the abc’s or counting. 

As I’ve been a teenager I’ve had a multitude of identity crises. At first I thought I was pan in middle school. Like just 2 years of me thinking that. Then I learned a wee bit about asexuality and disregarded it. I thought I could be gray-ace or something. I just wanted to be normal. Then at one point I thought that I was bi and demiromantic, except I couldn’t stand the thought of actually having to date anyone. I was also having a major gender crisis. One of my friends said that I could be aro, and I was like “Nah nah...totally allo...[internally just panicking]!”. I aggressively denied it. And now I’ve come to accept that I am in fact aroace and that I love hugs.