reminiscing about the times when I could eat sugar without calling it a binge… The fat good ol’ days.
The only thing I need.
active 4n4 blogs in february 2025 reblog this , trying to find active moots
I'm either gonna die skinny and ⭐️ving or morbidly obese getting rich off feederism content and there's no in between
Just saw a tiktok about a doll than panned from the legs up and thought "OMG GOALS"...then realised it was a skeleton
I love tracking full meals after only taking one bite then being upset the number is so high😍😍
Fuck next week is pancake Tuesday. THEYRE SO HIGH IN CALS ALREADY AND I JUST KNOW THEYRE GONNA GREASE THE PAN WITH BUTTER
Whoever’s seeing this will lose -10kg 🍎
Whoever’s seeing this will lose -10kg 🍎
Whoever’s seeing this will lose -10kg 🍎
Whoever’s seeing this will lose -10kg 🍎
Whoever’s seeing this will lose -10kg 🍎
Ik a lot of people spread awareness about @na coaches that are just pedos, but if anyone was a victim of one and needs someone to talk to can dm me any time
WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT! I just remembered my biggest inspo when I was like 12. MONICA GELLER. Cuz like first of all Courteney Cox is beautiful, second Monica was a fat girl that turned her life around and turned her binge eating into obsessive cleaning?? My rooms so fucking messy I tidy it like once a year
I won't make the same mistakes as last time. I'll be more discreet. I'll tell no one. I won't even mention w8 (except rn because you cant tell I've relapsed yet and our scale is broken so I'm trying to get my mom to buy a new one cuz I'm 'curious' how well my recovery going). I'm logging Absolutely everything. Every bite. If I don't finish something I'm still logging it as if I did. I'll only eat in front of people to avoid suspicion. I. Will. Not. Fail.
Every time I remember ⭐️ving can cause infertility I get really sad for a few hours but keep continuing anyway. Wish there was a way around it. I wanna be skinny but I also want a baby.
When I move out I wanna OMAD a strawberry daiquiri and a fibre one bar a day
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Nobody talks about sliced ham wtf! Like depending on the brand its around 90-100cals per 100g AND LIKE 16-20G OF PROTEIN!?!?!?
Took before pictures yesterday now I gotta make before tiktik drafts, so in the honeymoon phase rn I'm so excited
Lw come back to me☹️
My old photos are such th!nspo wth
I forgot how high cal non-diet food is. Wdym i ate 1k today?? Need to get on track. No excuses this time.
UGH I HAD A THIGH GAP BEFORE 'Recovery' WHAT HAPPENED
I haven't used tumblr for so long and trying to get myself back into the swing of things after attempted recovery is so odd. Like what do I do?? What tf are communities?? Help😭🙏
I met my younger self for a coffee today.
She looked at me and went "we're still not skinny??"
I sighed and said "damn girl we're trying, okay??"
Lol I may be back? Idk. 4 months tho! That's crazy. I'm not sure yet. But it's so weird being back! Missed yall😔 miss my old account where I had thousands of moots 💔 anyways hey! Idk what tags yall use anymore so I'm just using the ones recommended to me
The whole reason I wanted to recover in the first place was for my grades so I don't think I'll do too low a deficit (800-900cals a day) and because I was scared because my mom caught me lying about lunch at school so I was convinced she was stalking me oops
May be back. Idk yet.
I’ll probably be back in like a week lol. But I think I want to start recovery. So I may be gone for a while.
when it comes to myself, sk!nny is pretty.
but when it comes to others, i see the beauty in them regardless of their w3ight or looks.
why does my brain work the way it does?
I’m not a hater. I’m JEALOUS of people with fast metabolisms, I don’t hate them. I don’t hate them, what I hate is the fact that some of them are stuck in a body they don’t want, being insecure about being skinny, when I ⭐️ve and put my body and mind through hell and still be double the size of them